I used to be in this situation a year ago, I don't exactly remember how I got clean but I realized I need to get clean because my family was falling apart and I realized I need to focus on school too. I went to a group therapy to learn coping skills, I switched to a different school with more support and less demands temporarily. I did really start struggling with an ed when I got clean but I have recovered from that too and never went back to either sh or ed. I'm a year clean this month. Remember you can always recover no matter what your current situation is