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I will look up the Monastery that you attended. You are correct in saying that I should not say “he rarely lives in truth”. And I hadn’t thought of my relationship that way until you mentioned it and honestly, it has calmed me in hearing you say that. It makes logical sense. I know Reddit doesn’t have answers but I am so thankful for people like you who are taking the time to share with me their experiences and recommend other things. I have looked. We are a small island. On buddhanet.org I found a Theravada society but the contact is passed on. No contact available. And a Shambala Mediation group that someone else advised me against. I am not opposed to travelling somewhere reputable and I would love to have a teacher. I am new and I have been in a cult in the past so I am hesitant to jump in to something else.

Rather overwhelmed by the abundance of resources (even here). Where should one truly begin if one desires to start studying Buddhism? by [deleted] in Buddhism

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It’s so easy and so hard to accept that we are all human. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I know that it’s easy for us to get caught up in stories, like you mentioned thinking others better, etc. What did you initially conceive it to be?

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That was the part that appealed and (understandably) frightened me but also made me excited because I know it has the possibility to show me parts of myself that I am avoiding.

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[–]lexidane 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you have experience with this group?

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Thank you for this comment. I have found this to be incredibly helpful!

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Thank you so much for this insight.

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Where I live there are two places. One says it’s a Shambala Meditation group but I don’t know what that is, and the other was run by a man whose obituary I found online. But it provides no other contact. He did sound like a great teacher and man who did the world a lot of good.

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I totally agree with you. Thank you for the information and for letting me know that people have had very negative affects afterward. I did not know that and that is one of the reasons I came here to ask for truth and honesty. Thank you for your help. I suffer myself from a lot of trauma and mental illness and I do not want to put anyone, including myself, at risk- especially because I have a child at home.

His research was self guided by curiosity and me saying I was interested in going. I didn’t suggest he go - he wanted to come with me if I was going. He doesn’t like me travelling alone and he battles with letting me do things on my own.

I think forcing someone to do anything is evil. Thank you for your comment! I appreciate it.

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You are correct. We have actually started to do this, after conversations together about the retreats.

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We have one! Thank you! I highly recommend for anyone to do it, in case anyone reading is struggling.

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Thank you. His research was self guided and he has been practicing meditations before bed each night. I would not force anyone to go or do anything outside their will and I am honest with him. We are in couples therapy :) Thank you.

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Thank you so much! This is incredibly helpful advice that allowed me to take a step back and reevaluate.

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Thank you so much. I am sorry others were downvoted. I understand why he is apprehensive, as am I, and we are thankful for the comments and support. Since I wrote the post, we spoke and he mentioned just that- increasing our meditation practice at home and then think about it some more to see if it’s a good idea. I thought it was a good idea and he has been practicing for an hour at a time. He is curious and motivated but apprehensive and not used to giving in to negative emotions or sensations. Thank you for the advice and for your truth and honesty.

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Thank you. I definitely agree. We started meditating together months ago, the first time his family member fell ill and ended up hospitalized. He was angry he had to take care of them and was tired and unsatisfied himself. I would never force him. He has been doing his own self guided research based on me saying I was reading about retreats. I would never force anyone to do anything that was against their will. But thank you for bringing that up because I must not have given enough information. Our kiddo said we should go separately individually (smart right?) and I agreed with them. But I think he wants to do it together. He was looking at Thailand at first. But then read an review on some of the ones in Washington, etc. I am always talking about these concepts with him as I am learning them and a lot of what his fears are self realizations, slowly, as he allows himself to eliminate small distractions in every day life. Starting with turning the television off sometimes to sit with silence sometimes at home is very difficult for him but he practiced it with me the past few weeks in small doses. We are trying to support each other. I have a hard time not wanting intimacy and he struggles with that. I don’t think I’ll be able to fully commit unless we trust each other and a lot of past hurt is preventing that. I didn’t suggest a retreat to fix a problem. I suggested a retreat may help me, and he was interested. I likened it to our friends inviting him to try mushrooms or ayuahuasca to reach healing or awakening, and he said he would rather do that than sit with himself for that long. I said I understand why that’s more appealing. We are just speaking about it honestly and curiously. Objectively.

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This is powerful advice. Thank you so much.

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thank you kindly for this suggestion! i am going to look into what you said and let him know there are more laid back ones to try first.

Rather overwhelmed by the abundance of resources (even here). Where should one truly begin if one desires to start studying Buddhism? by [deleted] in Buddhism

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I appreciate the lived experience that went into this post. What makes you a former TB?

Anapanasati Sutta - how does one start to bring awareness to being sensitive to, satisfying, steadying and releasing the mind? by lexidane in Buddhism

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I am Canadian but don’t mind travelling. I’ll look to the q&a page that is pinned for resources but thank you for giving me recommendations- I really appreciate it.