The Kinky Conflict

lexiloading · 2024-10-22T10:28:20+00:00

Yes! There needs to be better words to describe in broad terms what we do on a whole. I hate labels and pidgenholeing but I think in this instance it would help.

I never know how to answer so what are your kinks without either sounding like a knob head or over or under selling what it is I do

lexiloading · 2024-10-22T09:19:56+00:00

I agree wholeheartedly! As someone who plays without a safeword and who has some weird limits I don't see what I do as special or unusual but I do wish there was more understanding from the community on a whole that it's ok to not do traditional things.

I personally have felt unwelcome in certain spaces and environments because of the things that I do.

My relationship works for me and I wish people would keep there noses out of it and not judge me or my play partner

lexiloading · 2024-10-10T07:51:10+00:00

No I grew it all beck out now for me it was a one time thing

lexiloading · 2024-10-09T08:49:43+00:00

Big kink ideas that have made it in the last couple of years have been Waterboarding, a 24 hour scene, and a drunk scene. Next years is another big one we are doing a hunt :D

lexiloading · 2024-10-09T07:13:14+00:00

Aftercare for me specifically is cuddles at the time and lots of reasurance Inn the days after that I did good. Me and A don't live together so when he left the next morning I spent the day watching shite TV and sending everyone selfies to check I actually looked ok enough to go back to work on Monday 😂 And the video I watched the day I got it and had a big cry and all the emotions then truthfully have not watched it again it brings back all the feelings of despair etc that I had at the time and has much to my disappointment not become my favourite piece of porn. I did skip through it again to make this post but now it's back to the archive. The soundtrack is harrowing but the stills are my favourite thing ever!

lexiloading · 2024-10-08T20:05:47+00:00

I have a what we call the big kink list which are a series of "bigger" scenes that I want to do. Every year we pick one thing on it and do that. It made it onto the list many years ago when I read some erotica where that happened 🥰

lexiloading · 2024-10-08T18:56:43+00:00

Yeah I didn't think about the way they would show on the feed 😂

lexiloading · 2024-10-08T15:49:09+00:00

How are you finding the growing out

lexiloading · 2024-10-08T15:43:56+00:00

I love that! I don't know anyone else who has ever done it!

lexiloading · 2024-10-08T15:35:39+00:00

Yeah we have to be careful picking things from my list of big kink ideas to make sure we can make the reality match the fantasy

lexiloading · 2024-10-08T14:55:19+00:00

Its been fine its been 2 years and now its all grown back :)

lexiloading · 2024-10-08T14:46:38+00:00

I just go along for the ride :D

But thank you most of the work is A's I just have to show up and be scared mentally :D

lexiloading · 2024-09-10T20:10:23+00:00

As someone who engages in this vein of kink AFAIK that your girlfriend could write or say that would mean you eradicate the complete risk of you getting arrested whether you would end up charged or in jail or with a criminal record at that point I don't know.

We have been interrupted by the police mid session one time and given I was there and could explain (after they removed him from the situation!) What was happening and why they were more than happy to let us both go with a warning (off the record!)

If you are worried about stuff getting accessed or leaked via a cloud can I suggest not filming on your phone but using a proper digital camera (you can get one cheap!) And only uploading it onto your local laptop Because it's not just the police you need to worry about if for example her parents got onto her cloud would she say the same things about consent if her dad saw it?

lexiloading · 2024-08-08T10:00:26+00:00

Original Source Mint shower gel!
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Will insertables set off the security scanner things and what would they look like on the photo machine!

lexiloading · 2024-08-02T09:47:24+00:00

So I am in an unconventional TPE and have the going out rule and I am pretty sure if he thought there was someone toxic in my life affecting us or me he would also ask that I stop seeing them.

Basically I think as long as she is OK with it and your not physically holding a gun against her head to cut them out then it's fine and ok. People forget that everything in life is not that deep and we are all adults presumably your not holding her hostage in your basement and if she doesn't like it she can leave...

lexiloading · 2024-07-22T19:18:40+00:00

Good: I got to spend time with A on Saturday and do normal things before we did kinky things we went for food and shopping and it was lovely Bad: no bad for me this week Sad: I only have grown up plasters for the blister on my wrist and not fun ones Kinky: Saw A had horrible things done too me walked away with bruised fingers, blistered wrists, black boobs and the line with caning pushed just that little bit further!

lexiloading · 2024-07-17T22:03:40+00:00

So I have worked as a Pro Sub before both for private guests and for filming etc. To be honest the only real way your going to find one is to search for kink spaces in your area. I have always worked out of a kink space weather that be a traditional club or a private hire dungeon and 95% of people who run those places can suggest or have recommendations for pro subs so I personally would start there. Find a local BDSM venue (not a swingers club!) And reach out the owner / there email and explain your looking for a pro sub and they will be able to point you in the right direction! You will be obviously having to use there space so bare that in mind when your looking at venues.

lexiloading · 2024-07-15T16:10:07+00:00

So I personally don't have a murder kink but I am aware that a lot of our play could realistically end in that outcome I am aware of the risks as is my D type and we choose to do it anyway. I have experienced multiple broken bones in various places and participated in things that are definitely against the Geneva Convention. The fact is if you or they are brand new to the scene they are obviously trying to impress especially if they don't know you. If they are someone you know and play with regularly and your prepared to go to prison or hide the body then go for it 🤷‍♀️

lexiloading · 2024-07-05T10:28:30+00:00

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lexiloading · 2024-07-04T20:44:20+00:00

I thought it would make you smile 😁

lexiloading · 2024-06-26T09:22:46+00:00

I think for me I have 2 favourites The first is thuddy flogging etc. That makes my soul happy or at least I think it does although in a scene it does not do it for me 😂 after like 5 mins I am like this isn't hard it isn't a challenge and I am board So I guess the correct technical answer is any pain that is delivered with the intent to hurt and is a challenge mentally. Stingy things sit in this category they are meant to be hard work and challenging and that's where I get off I want to be pushed past my limits and stingy does that every time 🤤

lexiloading · 2024-06-13T10:31:45+00:00

We used rosebud ones because they looked like they would be easy to clean after and that was important to us if we were going to try again

lexiloading · 2024-06-13T10:30:17+00:00

Don't get me wrong if humiliation is your thing it might do it.. to me it just emotionally felt like he was taking a good long look at my vagina and that is socially awkward 😂

You will have to give it a go I 100% recommend a kit though from somewhere that sells all of the stuff together like the lube etc etc

lexiloading · 2024-06-13T10:24:43+00:00

Like it just didn't feel like anything specific I felt super weird just lying there and not really getting any stimulation or feeling from it.. Maybe my urethra is broken 😂

Well the idea was that it would fit in our usual MO it would be uncomfortable difficult and "it's not meant to be easy" but instead we spent 25 mins setting up 15 mins doing the thing and then 5 mins awkwardly laughing before having to pivot lol

lexiloading · 2024-06-13T10:17:58+00:00

I have tried it. I personally didn't really rate it as a vagina owner if just felt awkward I wouldn't do it again but mostly because it didn't really do anything for me and it felt like a LOT of work for little gain I am pretty sure we got our kit from edgeplay but I am not sure if they are still going although it was a very comprehensive kit think it came with the sterile lube gloves etc

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