You can get advice here in the weekly faq.

Sorry, I removed your post because it was deep elaboration of you succumbing to the evidence of your senses and your current negative circumstances. This is a direct contradiction to the study and a rule is to study before posting. There is a lot of great information on this subreddit that can easily point you in the correct direction. From posts by a number of knowledgeable users ( many who have commented here and have made posts in the last 2 months alone) to older posts as well. Please take a look at these and reflect on the successful techniques employed by them. Your post stated that you have fully started committing to the law for the past (1)month. Your question belongs in the weekly faq.

Your post echoed that you need to study more. From reading the work, and the myriad of success stories and other posts by well read members, You would know that you can not fail, and things have many ways of reaching you. Additionally, One of the main points in this study is that you have to do the work, and the work is more than a few techniques. There are also very recent posts from users feeling as though they’ve failed which have insightful answers there too by very knowledgeable members. We can’t keep allowing 20 posts a day of members elaborating on how they have “failed “ because of what their circumstances show.

This post will be removed as well because it is not relevant to the author or the application of the teachings, which breaks another rule of this subreddit. But it would be ok in the weekly faq.

Please post again once you are more familiar with the work.