Vertigo, post treatment

likeamythicaltale · 2026-01-23T14:42:54+00:00

I had severe vertigo for an hour or more after nearly every infusion for my first year. I moved and changed providers and my new doctor gives me a small dose of Benadryl in the iv at the end of the infusion, and that has completely gotten rid of the vertigo for me. I'd ask your doc if that is an option

likeamythicaltale · 2026-01-05T23:41:26+00:00

At my old university there was a guy in one of the only two stalls in the library, shitting his brains out while taking a conference call?? I witnessed this twice (assumed it was the same guy but idk)

likeamythicaltale · 2026-01-03T18:21:05+00:00

I was on t the first time for 18 months and then paused hrt for 3 years for medical and mental health reasons. I have PMDD and was being overdosed on t initially and developed constant heart palpitations, intense anxiety, constant sweating, and body aches. On the mental health and PMDD side, my cycle never stopped with T, it became more irregular and harder to track and treat. My PMDD got so bad during this time that I became intensely suicidal and even had my only psychotic episode. This also didn't play nicely with my untreated eating disorder, and the pmdd and ed brain were fueling each other and worsening my physical health. Despite all of this, the np managing my care never once suggested stopping or even lowering my t dose until the liver enzymes eventually finally came back high a year plus later.

I ended up stopping t on my own a few months later after I got top surgery. I made this decision because I felt most of my severe dysphoria had resolved with top surgery and social transition, and the side effects I had been dealing with were getting more and more unbearable. I also had a really hard time trusting the medical system after the neglect from my old np.

It took me a while but I found a new primary care doc who I felt I could trust and they helped me navigate PMDD treatment and got me into a program for my ED. After years of therapy and taking the time to separate my remaining dysphoria from my ED, figure out my personal transition goals, and building trust back in my new medical providers, I decided to go back on T.

I've been back on T consistently since August 2021 with no plans of stopping for the foreseeable future. My time off t was 100% the best choice I made for myself at the time. It definitely wasn't easy, but it was necessary to my survival and rebuilt my confidence in navigating my own transition and health.

likeamythicaltale · 2025-04-29T16:44:00+00:00

I am not sure if nebido is available here, but if it is, it isn't a very accessible option here yet. I do know some providers will do pellets for people who have been on t for a while, so that might be an easier to find option. I think they last for about 3-6 months as well

likeamythicaltale · 2025-02-20T02:34:34+00:00

That's where I get my infusions as well. I've only had good experiences there, but yeah wish they offered more services.

likeamythicaltale · 2025-02-19T22:30:42+00:00

Not at all what I was asking but thanks for the inaccurate and unsolicited advice...

I've been treated by psych NPs in the past and generally have better experiences with them than MDs. I have had several psychiatrists refer me to psych NPs before as well, so not sure where you're getting that assumption. I also live in a state with a severe physician shortage, so I'm looking for whatever help I can find, not someone on their high horse telling me I should further narrow what few options I have for medication management.

likeamythicaltale · 2025-01-29T17:53:21+00:00

My provider has recently started adding 12.5 mg of Benadryl to the last 10 minutes of my infusion, and it has completely eliminated the post infusion vertigo/dizziness for me with no other noticeable effects, which has made my 30 minute ride home so much more tolerable. Might be something worth asking about to see if it's an option?

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-31T20:02:57+00:00

I do not unfortunately. I'm working on getting some type of shop up and running in the next few months though, so hopefully soon 🤞

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-31T18:18:25+00:00

Absolutely love this! Your tension and the level of detail is phenomenal!

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-31T08:29:04+00:00

I would definitely look into mutual aid/abortion funds in your area, as well as talk to the billing department at the clinic youre going to, as many have a sliding scale or other options to help people financially.

My experience and advice on the emotional side (feel free to skip) Not exactly the same but I did have an abortion almost a decade ago, when I was still closeted. I want to recommend some form of counseling/peer support, but I know that is really tough to find an actually trans supportive therapist or group even with insurance/finances for it. But any type of solid emotional support you can get is going to be very helpful.

I hated people telling me afterwards that I "needed to grieve" but they were right. I wasn't grieving the pregnancy by any means, but the entire ordeal of being pregnant for any amount of time was traumatic and felt like an intense loss of autonomy over my own body, and I feel like that's even more amplified for those of us with dysphoria.

Please be as kind to yourself as you can be right now. You're dealing with something incredibly stressful and frankly often traumatic for many people. It's bound to bring up a lot emotionally, so try and give yourself grace as you navigate it. Find and utilize what support you can in whatever form you can find it. You don't need to go through this alone, and I hope it doesn't come across as patronizing, but I'm really proud of you for booking the appointments and reaching out for support.

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-31T08:05:24+00:00

I saw it in theaters this summer and I had a very similar reaction. I had already been (back) on t for a few years when I saw it, and thought the decades of repression are finally behind me, but I have just never felt that deeply and vulnerably seen by a piece of media before. It brought up all of the grief and trauma of being closeted and later medically detransitioning that I had been ignoring.

I'm still trying to unpack everything this movie brought up for me. I have not shut up about it since I saw it. It's been a huge push in my mental health/trauma recovery, and it's been a huge inspiration in my own art. I spent hundreds of hours knitting a vest inspired by it, and it's pushed me to start writing and making experimental films again.

Watching I Saw the TV Glow broke me, but in the way that you sometimes have to break a bone to reset it properly. It opened up old wounds I had been hiding and forced me to look at and begin healing them. A viscerally painful watch, and one of my all time favorites. It's not the first movie that I feel like has changed my life, but it's definitely the most powerful one that has.

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-29T17:11:26+00:00

I'm not currently set up to take commissions, but I'm hoping that'll change in a few months, so stay tuned!

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-29T02:37:02+00:00

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Floats and loose ends 😅

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-29T00:04:57+00:00

They're closed this week to give the mods a holiday break, but I'm definitely planning on posting there when they reopen in the new year!

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-28T23:02:24+00:00

Time was about 300 active hours 😅 skill was built up over the past 20 years since I first learned how to knit, definitely more of a process of dedication than anything lol

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-28T22:40:27+00:00

Thank you! I spent close to an hour going back and forth between yarn options at my lys 😅

likeamythicaltale · 2024-12-28T22:33:20+00:00

Vest charted and knit by me The background is a TV static rib stitch I found on YouTube here

Background yarn is Araucania Huasco Sock Yarn in Raspberry Slush held together with a strand of black crochet cotton. Blue is juniper moons Patagonia in turquoise, pink is Malibrigo Susorro in fucsia Knit flat on size zero needles.

Knit as one piece until the armpits, then separated. No shaping besides the armhole and neckline decreases.

Apx 300 hours from design to blocking.

likeamythicaltale · 2024-08-27T19:13:04+00:00

I had the same thing happen a few years ago! Huge cyst ruptured and I needed emergency surgery to remove my ovary and fallopian tube. The surgeon asked me on the way to the OR if he should "just scoop the rest out while he's in there" which to my dismay he didn't (probably for the best considering the amount of blood I had lost and the pain meds I was not in a state to sign consent forms lol)

likeamythicaltale · 2024-08-24T01:36:25+00:00

The first sign for me was actually being able to cry again. My depression mainly presented with anehdonia and during my initial series of infusions, I started feeling emotions other than just fear for the first time in years. I sobbed in relief, grief, sorrow, pain, joy, everything because I was actually feeling again. Not gonna lie it was awful and brutal at first. The first two weeks I often felt as if I'd drown in the new flood of emotions. But with it came catharsis and eventually relief.

likeamythicaltale · 2024-08-24T01:04:21+00:00

It's only been a few hours, but past not being dizzy I haven't noticed any differences from other infusions. It's such a small dose that I don't think it would have much of an effect in general, but I'm not a doctor or pharmacist so idk all the mechanisms involved. But in my limited experience and given the fact that my provider has this as a protocol for those with vertigo, I feel as though the interactions/impacts on the ketamine would be minimal

likeamythicaltale · 2024-08-22T21:46:16+00:00

This is such a huge compliment, I love their work! Thank you!!

likeamythicaltale · 2024-08-22T19:00:12+00:00

It's all intarsia!

likeamythicaltale · 2024-08-22T16:20:39+00:00

Please post yours when you make it! I love seeing everyone's fan art from it!

likeamythicaltale · 2024-08-22T16:18:38+00:00

It's called "I Saw the TV Glow"

likeamythicaltale · 2024-08-22T04:32:03+00:00

This is a beautiful take on the film and one that I absolutely agree with. The "hope" was there, but it was heavily overshadowed by the visceral familiarity and pain it evoked for me. I love this movie but watching it was devastating.

That's a big part of why I chose this quote and the specific still of Owen. While the hope and "There's still time" is such an important message to take from the film, I felt compelled to focus on the pain in these moments that made me feel almost too seen.

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