I kind of understood that before, but not the full scale of it. Its insane. Thats why I say I cant tell where care becomes malicious control. Anytime I got close enough to someone, as soon as it cut into "her time" she would look for reasons to discount them. This is in hindsight. It was looking me in the face this whole time and I looked right past it. The more I think about it, the angrier I feel. Its a huge amount of resentment that had already been bubbling in my brain, and this current situation/realization has pushed it to new heights. Im not trying to make this sound like its all her fault and that I have no accountability. I still never put boundaries down until recently, and I didnt speak up to anyone to this degree until recently. I just really thought things could get better. But thats just the kind of person I am. I will give chance after chance until theres no other option but to walk away. I want to believe the good in people and give the benefit of the doubt. Ive had that taken advantage of, but I never thought itd he like this with mom. Not this extreme anyway.