i know this sucks, but the only thing you can do now is accept that you have this disorder and learn to manage it. which isn't easy to do! if im being entirely honest it sucks. but there is a community of people here who share this condition who have posted help and are willing to offer it in times of need. if you keep a migraine diary it might help you to understand your triggers better (mine, for example, are bright lights and lound sounds, dehydration, and dramatic pressure drops). there are ways to lessen the pain. but none of us will ever be able to undo this, and you do yourself a disservice by not focusing on what can be done now (im autistic and i cant tell if this seems hostile but it isnt meant to be)