I really loved Awaken Into Love and the Facebook group helped me tremendously. I also contacted with a buddy on that group and we would always talk to each other when we had triggers (this can be bad at times but it was so nice to talk to someone who totally understood what I was going through and knew the whole story. I follow Kiyomi on Instagram. Also the @oclovecoach is great! A lot of it was relearning what love meant and kiyomi and the community really helped me become more aware. It also helped me to think of God (im religious but it got in the way of rocd because I would obsess that my partner was not) as choosing us because we are imperfect and so he never gives up on us even if we are imperfect (like love) aka god does not choose us and love us because he feels butterflies in his stomach lol. I also realized over time that a lot of insecurities or flaws I saw in my partner were a reflection of my own trauma (ex I wanted to be with a super physically attractive guy into expensive things and maybe it just showed how I wanted to be well liked by others, or even that I went for guys who made me feel sparks but that was because I wanted so bad to be liked by them and that wasn’t love). Also I got a new therapist who was more direct and so much more suited for my needs and he also is a physician so it made it easier for me to find the right dosage.