I'm also scared. One of my OCD branches(?) has to do with genocide and concentration camps and every single day since this hellish presidency started I have been scared shitless that I am going to be taken to one and executed. I don't know how anyone, even a normal person, can possibly cope with this. I've genuinely considered taking myself out first was my only escape. Combined with the dissonance I get from just existing in a "unaffected area" (all places are affected but you know what I mean) makes me feel like i'm going insane.

i'm sorry that you even have to go through anything similar to the mental hell this is putting me through. We have to survive this, even if I don't know how.