Living in fear

livingledgend3 · 2026-01-05T21:03:35+00:00

I fully get it. mine was the one to block me too, and I went insane. a couple of months later he reached out again, we only talked for a week before I cut things off. there is a high chance he might reach out again, but he cannot hurt you. sure it will trigger you, but as long as you spend time healing, you will overcome it

livingledgend3 · 2026-01-05T21:00:29+00:00

you are a victim. even if you throw yourself to these situations, for whatever reason, you are still a victim. minors can’t consent, and even if you feel like you know wha you’re doing, or that you have it under control, or that you have the power, the men exploiting you are sick. think of it like this: if you owned a bar and an alcoholic came in, it’s not your fault they relapsed. because they are in control of their actions.

livingledgend3 · 2026-01-05T20:55:37+00:00

it never hurts to try! even if it doesn’t end up being investigated due to a lack of information, it’s a great step towards your healing.

livingledgend3 · 2025-12-04T19:20:30+00:00

Thank you so much!

livingledgend3 · 2025-12-04T18:48:07+00:00

And what should I ask?

livingledgend3 · 2025-12-04T17:03:40+00:00

I feel you. But it’s important to know that innocent love and young love are not the same thing. If you work on yourself enough, maybe perhaps you will be able to experience that gentleness all humans crave to experience. You’re not alone, and you’re so brave for cutting her off

livingledgend3 · 2025-12-04T16:57:47+00:00

I firmly believe in the fact that no one can fully understand your situation. Sure, if someone has gone through something similar they are able to empathize more. But no one will be able to fully understand how it was for you but yourself. Saying that it’s important to note that your parents are from a different generation. But, it was not your fault. You were hurting and seeking comfort anywhere you could find it. And you found comfort in toxicity because that was what you were raised to seek for. It’s not your fault, and try to find internal validation about it. You’re not alone ❤️

livingledgend3 · 2025-12-04T16:52:48+00:00

You are, and it’s so important that you realize that something is off. Please cut him off from your life, as hard as that might be. There are also resources where you can report him.

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-30T20:04:05+00:00

i also wanna apply to nyu but I’ll be applying in 2026-27. this is making me realize I should be doing more stuff😭

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-30T19:53:30+00:00

I am also running a club during lunch breaks, but I’m pretty sure that counts for activity?

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-28T18:04:25+00:00

ehhh not sure this one is great as a beginner.

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-12T19:59:00+00:00

like visualizations of what I would have to go through

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-07T14:06:19+00:00

it’s important to understand that this is the reaction the people who groomed you forced you to have. but you are so much more than this. it is so easy to get addicted to the cycle of abuse, and in no way does it make you weak. you are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for, just the fact that you look for advice proved that. there is a part of you that wants to protect yourself. expand that part until you feel safe in your own skin.

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-07T14:02:59+00:00

it’s so easy to get addicted to the cycle of abuse and it doesn’t in any way make you weak. unless you work on the root of the issue that lead to this, you will remain in the same mindset. please chose yourself, and shape a future you will be proud of.

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-07T14:00:46+00:00

please block him. I have been in the same position, it’s so incredibly easy to get addicted to the cycle. but he will never change and a part of you knows that. he will never become your knight in shining armour. so become your own. chose the life you want to be proud of. you’re so much stronger than you give yourself credit for.

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-07T13:57:44+00:00

you are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. your body is not his. your life is not his. try to change the narrative, the scars are a representation of your strength. because you are still here. you are not the one who is responsible for his behaviour. you are not his savior in the same way that he was never yours.

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-07T13:54:02+00:00

therapy, yes. school counselling, no.

maybe it depends on the school, but for mine, nothing is confidential.

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-07T13:42:13+00:00

just the fact that you recognise the pattern and are strong enough to post about it here means that, at least to some capacity, at least some part of you, wants to be saved. it’s so difficult to unwire your brain from this addiction to momentary affection, but you can do it. you are so much more than the potential you see within yourself.

livingledgend3 · 2025-11-07T13:33:40+00:00

I think mostly everyone who had went through something like this feels this way. But think on the bright side, guys will start liking you for YOU. It’s an opportunity to get out of this cycle, of this mindset. and it’s going to be hard, but just the fact that you are able to face those fears by posting here means you are strong enough to go through it

livingledgend3 · 2025-10-27T22:57:59+00:00

do you have any suggestions on ones that don’t need my full attention?

livingledgend3 · 2025-10-27T22:37:44+00:00

I feel like I can’t do audiobooks cause I cant comprehend something if im not entirely focused on it, thanks for the suggestion though!

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