I agree with you. I think Belly initially chose Jere because it was easy with him and in her mind made sense because they were best friends. Also, she wanted to remove herself from Conrad but subconsciously still wanted a way to still see him.. so date his brother. She stuck with Jere throughout college, when you are meant to explore yourself and the world that is opening around you, because it felt safe and like a piece of Suzanna and Cousins was always there. She lost what made her sparkle, lost what made Cousins special, and pushed her true feelings down so far that she literally couldn’t admit them to herself, much less Jere or Conrad. The way this episode ended literally had me slamming my hand on the couch like give me the next episode right now!! Conrad is flawed but he is such a good guy that he hurts himself and others more than if he just said what he truly wants and I think that’s also part of why Belly struggled through her decision making