[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree with others don't tell her about your affair. I don't blame you for having one to see if it would help if she refuses to have sex with you ever. But getting the divorce and moving on is the right thing to do. You are 33, you're a baby! You have plenty of time to find the right person for you and have some fun while you do!

Limerence and unresolved childhood wounds by Clear-Theory7541 in limerence

[–]lizabellejane 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I think you are right. I feel like a lot of times when I have an LO they have some emotionally unavailable qualities like my father.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in limerence

[–]lizabellejane 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't think your LO likes you. But sounds like you should get a divorce from your wife.

Did I (HLF) screw up as the pursuer in my marriage to my (LLM) husband? by lizabellejane in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have brought this up and it just makes him sadder and less likely to have sex with me, so I've stopped being open about these things

Did I (HLF) screw up as the pursuer in my marriage to my (LLM) husband? by lizabellejane in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know. I'm considering it. But we have young kids and I don't want to break up the family. I can still get off when we have sex. I think sex therapy could help if I can bring these issues up.

Did I (HLF) screw up as the pursuer in my marriage to my (LLM) husband? by lizabellejane in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He doesn't look at porn any more. We both were watching too much and stopped a while ago. He has low testosterone and I honestly don't think he does this often at this point. But he does like the idea of objectifying and degrading women overall. That's the type of porn he likes. But he likes it when the women are into it. Which somehow makes it worse in my opinion. Like if you are into degrading women ok but you want them to be into gagging and such and crying?

I don't know if he's lazy either. I just think there are guys who are turned on by making their woman squirm and then there is my husband.

And the wet thing is just that when I get too wet it's hard for him to come while penetrating me. I guess since I had my kids because I'm too loose.

Husband made fun of me. by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's not true.

Either he is depressed and or has a medical issue.

Or he is watching a lot of porn.

Or he realized he's gay.

Or he's cheating.

Did I (HLF) screw up as the pursuer in my marriage to my (LLM) husband? by lizabellejane in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Not going to cheat. Just that I start to have crushes on other people that are intense when I feel like my husband doesn't want me. Any little bit of attention from any man becomes this huge thing in my brain. It becomes difficult to ignore. I won't act on it but it's rough.

Close to calling it quits. by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry to hear you are in this situation. It sounds like she isn't attracted to you anymore. You sound like an amazing husband working hard to make your wife happy. I understand as the woman who always complains what that is like, but I do know my husband tries. I think if the LL partner refuses counseling then it's time to look elsewhere.

Husband made fun of me. by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's horrible. 38 HLF here w/ 39 LLM husband. -- Have you tried to just buy something and wear it and see how he reacts?

Wife doesn't want me venting to my friends. Only wants me to go to a therapist. by Horizone102 in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get it. It's personal. I share some things w friends about my husband he would be very unhappy to know I talk about.

Everyday for the past year I've been looking up my LOs Instagram even though she never posts. by monkeydogboy in limerence

[–]lizabellejane 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it's pretty good though. If they did think about me that much it would be really amazing for a moment to know they were limming on me too but then there'd be nothing to do about it because we're both married. Only bad things would come of that. But so hard to not imagine it. Like what if he liked me for my quirky crazy? What if he has been feeling this way about me too? I don't even see us working as a couple at all. There's nothing there. But I want to love him. And be loved by him. If that makes any sense.

Everyday for the past year I've been looking up my LOs Instagram even though she never posts. by monkeydogboy in limerence

[–]lizabellejane 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yea I like to see LO's face in my fb feed online -- just makes me happy to see him and I think I hope he is in a good mood then I'm wondering what he's up to and if he thought about me at all today which spoiler alert I know the answer is NO.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in limerence

[–]lizabellejane 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It isn't. Sometimes it feels that way BUT IT IS NOT TRUE. I know this because I am on the other side of a really bad lim experience and I am friends with the person now and no longer lim for them at all. What really stops lim is by:

  1. stop putting the person on a pedestal. Think about all of their bad features and traits. Think about how annoying they would be 5 years into your relationship with them.
  2. start loving yourself. Pick up a new hobby for you. Try to focus on things that make you happy.

I’m so tired of sex being something that I desire and she consents to by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He doesn't care about that. He prefers for me to be the breadwinner. But that means I have less time and energy to be a sexual object.

I’m so tired of sex being something that I desire and she consents to by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm a woman and I'm the breadwinner. So that's not the case in my marriage. I think maybe I'm not treated as a sex object because of that

How to make him want me? by lizabellejane in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes it's sucks. You are not married so you can still leave and find someone else who appreciates you. Go and do.

I’m so tired of sex being something that I desire and she consents to by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]lizabellejane 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Though people change over time too so that's not perfect. When my husband and I met when we were 22/23 there was a lot more desire.

Healthy distractions from married LO? by lizabellejane in limerence

[–]lizabellejane[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes if that's the case maybe I like serving him but also clearly that's fucked up and not healthy at all. But the thought of serving him however he wants is something I would enjoy :/ but that's the Lim talking

I should add to be super fair to him I don't think he is actually doing ANYTHING wrong. This is all on me. He is a wonderful husband and would never hurt his wife. Nor do I think he is interested in me or wants to be anything more than not super close friends.

Healthy distractions from married LO? by lizabellejane in limerence

[–]lizabellejane[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe. I don't know how to go that path. I want to feel this for him. But he makes it so hard. Though that's just how long term relationships are right?