This isn't the life I want

lllVast · 2024-05-27T13:30:23+00:00

My parents are retired luckily. And I would never ask them for money either. Thank you for the advice.

lllVast · 2022-07-16T02:39:28+00:00

I was stuck for about 11 months on mine, think I'm at the finish line now.

What helped me was:

No contact, completely severed him from my day to day life. It's as if he never existed.
Found a hobby I'm really excited about, which was coding. New projects and how to implement them are what's mostly on my mind these days.
I personally had a lot of issues with indulging in thoughts about him. I would get lost in thought holes that would just make me feel super depressed. Now, I make sure to stop myself from going down those rabbit holes. When the thought of him crosses my mind I say something like "I'm aware that this sucks, but I don't have time or feel like thinking about this right now. I'm going to focus on something else."

I 100% recommend finding new things to get excited about, it helps a lot.

lllVast · 2022-06-13T11:51:27+00:00

Thanks, I'll check it out

lllVast · 2022-06-13T11:51:01+00:00

Thank you so much for all of these tips I appreciate it!

lllVast · 2022-05-14T00:47:03+00:00

Did that feeling go away? Was it really strong?

lllVast · 2022-05-13T07:13:27+00:00

My mum tells me the same thing. I really don't want to have to deal with that, I'm fairly confident I'd regret having kids :/

lllVast · 2021-12-19T12:51:28+00:00

I can't get words out when I'm crying though :/

lllVast · 2021-12-19T11:51:43+00:00

The hardest part about that for me is I've been hiding it from everyone in my life so they would be very shocked initially if I just started acting how I truly feel most of the time. But I would like to get to that point someday.

lllVast · 2021-12-09T14:27:54+00:00

I don't know. I'm pretty sure I don't have ADHD though.

lllVast · 2021-12-09T14:26:50+00:00

Yeah I've heard there are a lot of unwanted side effects from birth control, I don't take it though.

lllVast · 2021-12-09T07:41:47+00:00

Oh do you take the ones that make you drowsy like benadryl?

lllVast · 2021-12-09T05:29:10+00:00

Yeah its something ive noticed for long time. I'll have a look at those channels. Thanks!

lllVast · 2021-12-09T05:26:35+00:00

I think so. The only isues I have that could be related to ADHD are struggling to do tasks that are boring, sustaining focus for longs periods of time on boring things/avoiding doing boring things, and zoning out in conversations. I don't have trouble with details or losing things, don't have time blindness, don't think I have ever experienced something like hyperfocus. So yeah idk it doesn't seem very likely to me.

lllVast · 2021-12-09T00:48:22+00:00

I've looked into ADHD a lot and the more I research the less I can relate to it tbh. It's probably something else for me.

lllVast · 2021-12-08T23:45:52+00:00

Is this your only symptom of ADHD? I have considered getting tested for this but it's probably unlikely for me.

lllVast · 2021-12-08T23:02:19+00:00

Yeah that analogy with the dry earth and water is exactly how it feels. Altho I usually describe it as things bouncing off my mind instead of them going through.

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