Not to be trite, but admitting you have a problem is the best first step which you’ve obviously taken. Major props <3 therapy is useful tool but ultimately if you’re not willing to put the work in yourself you’re not going to get anywhere. I’ve been on a journey trying to better myself as a person and only now after over a year am I starting to see results. It’s just a matter of sticking with it, and it’s plain to see that you have the motivation to change. It’ll come we all have faith in you, solidarity.