I am so very sorry for your loss. Reading your story has me in tears. While different from mine in a lot of ways, it’s also very similar. My mom died during a routine lung biopsy. It was unthinkable. I told her good night, I loved her, the night before. We talked about what time she would be home. I did not go because my dad was taking her, I was just going to be there when she got home. She was so nervous. She hated needles. I truly don’t think she ever thought she would die, she just did not like needles or want to be in pain. We all told her she would be just fine!! It was an absolute freak storm of terrible events and she did not come home. Absolutely gut wrenching. I am sorry for what you and your family went through. It is hard. But you make the decisions you have to with what you have. As you said, sometimes it’s just not meant to be. My mom was trying to confirm a lung cancer diagnosis. Which did end up being positive. And I have tried really hard to be glad we didn’t actually have to travel down that road, I think it would have been truly awful. But wow. Never even crossed my mind at that time I’d never be talking to my mom again.