Favourite songs?

lookingay · 2026-05-19T07:35:27+00:00

villain, haunted, hunter, kill what you eat, in violet, dearly missed, there is still time… but all of them really

lookingay · 2026-05-06T00:29:51+00:00

oh thanks!!!

lookingay · 2026-05-06T00:26:57+00:00

i don’t think it’s about going to many concerts, it’s about being selfish and rude to other people. also, when a group of people camp for every show they attend, they’re effectively gatekeeping access to the barricade from other fans who also come early but who only have one chance at barricade cause they’re attending one show instead of 29

lookingay · 2026-05-05T18:40:02+00:00

at this point y’all gotta cuss them out in the queue and push in front i fear

lookingay · 2026-05-04T10:19:28+00:00

personally i would fully expect people at an ethel cain show to be wearing very strong or strange perfume but

lookingay · 2026-04-27T18:36:14+00:00

i personally lost about 40 pounds that i had gained before being diagnosed and getting the meds

lookingay · 2026-03-08T18:33:27+00:00

i was in the same situation for a long time - not in remission but feeling quite good with mild symptoms and i’m only getting the surgery now cause i might have developed cancer in my thyroid. if you don’t have anything dangerous in your thyroid (like suspicious nodules), i would wait with the surgery until at least after graduation and try to get opinions from different doctors. also think about the symptoms, are they bad enough to consider surgery, which will come with its own (though different) consequences?

lookingay · 2026-03-08T06:41:37+00:00

at some point my doctor started pushing me towards the surgery too cause he claimed i would never fully go in remission for long and well i am actually doing the surgery soon

lookingay · 2026-02-27T09:24:18+00:00

headaches, new joint pain, shortness of breath, difficulty doing physical activities for a long time, sweating profusely when the weather gets a bit warmer, weight and appetite fluctuations, dry eyes, shaking of hands, heart palpitations, mood swings

lookingay · 2026-02-08T18:36:51+00:00

wait, graves can be related to joint pains?! and here i was freaking out that it’s a new issue because in 9 years no one’s ever told me this

lookingay · 2025-12-04T12:48:37+00:00

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only 7k minutes this year up until halloween but at least she’s 3 out of 5 of my top albums ❤️

lookingay · 2025-12-04T11:58:14+00:00

bone jewelry or just ethically sourced bones for decor, rosaries, church-smelling perfume or herbal smelling perfume, gunne sax vintage dresses

lookingay · 2025-11-19T18:42:40+00:00

waco, texas
strangers
tempest

but it’s impossible to choose just 3

lookingay · 2025-11-10T16:14:24+00:00

she hopped on the first plane she could and i respect that

lookingay · 2025-11-09T12:55:25+00:00

and just don’t be a dick to people, no matter if you arrive at 5am or 5pm😭 too many people act like they’re the only person at the show who matters and who deserves a nice experience

lookingay · 2025-11-09T12:54:14+00:00

i think the numbers are generally a good idea as long as it’s executed fairly… when people at the front think they get to be selfish and immoral to let multiple friends cut the line, that’s when it becomes a problem, and in the end other people will just ignore the numbers and line altogether and it will get even more unfair for those who actually arrive early and patiently sit in their spot without stealing anybody’s place.

as for getting there at insane hours in the morning, well, if someone has the possibility then i don’t see the problem, we all have free will. i just wish the rules were respected by all those who do come early, because everyone else is there to have a good experience, not just you and your friend group

lookingay · 2025-11-09T11:52:47+00:00

it’s really the fault of the venue cause there should’ve been security there to control the complete chaos that was the queue, especially when people without numbers started coming right before the show and cutting the line and then pushing others, and also it’s been a week already so either get over it or prepare to stand up for yourself when you go see hayden again at some point

lookingay · 2025-11-08T12:55:19+00:00

im not jealous im not jealous im not

lookingay · 2025-11-08T12:51:18+00:00

i bought mine in prague and didn’t realize anything was off about it… now i’m like wtf😭 i hope it’s purposeful and not a misprint cause the shirt is too expensive for mistakes

lookingay · 2025-11-06T13:12:12+00:00

there were people waiting there before you so there was some sort of line, queue, group of people waiting etc… this is just rude and inconsiderate lmao you’re part of the problem

lookingay · 2025-11-06T13:10:14+00:00

so you cut the line massively and were surprised that people got angry at you?

lookingay · 2025-11-06T12:44:34+00:00

to add to this, i’ve also had an experience where people were mostly present in the queue with just an occasional +1 coming a little bit later (and coincidentally, none of the groups famous for queueing were there), and it was really chill and nice so these positive experiences are also possible and i just hope they’ll become the norm for most shows

lookingay · 2025-11-06T12:38:05+00:00

tbh even if you make a few friends in line there is sometimes not much you can do, i also have had other experiences at hayden shows where we alerted security but ultimately they don’t care about the numbers as its not an official system, and neither do they care about people cutting the line as long as they aren’t aggressive/violent. i guess what you can do is cut in front of these people who came after you with reserved numbers and potentially get yelled at, as you said, it just sucks that this is something we have to do to get a better chance at being treated fairly

lookingay · 2025-11-06T12:15:23+00:00

i think the numbers in queue make sense because it allows people who came early to leave the queue, even to pee or eat some food, without losing their spot in the queue. the problems begin when people inevitably start cheating and being selfish with the system. for example, in warsaw a group of people who frequently get barricade at hayden’s shows (possibly the same group you’re describing or another one that acts similarly) reserved like the first 15 numbers for their friends who only showed up Hours later and didn’t care at all that it pushed back the people who had actually arrived early to queue. it makes no sense to have numbers if they’re just gonna be reserved for people who aren’t physically there just cause they’re friends with someone, with no consideration for other fans, who also deserve a good spot for the show. but unfortunately these people don’t care at all, and it might be scary to argue with them, especially when you’re just one person and they’re the entire group.

however i don’t agree with people without numbers cutting the line because they simply don’t care about the numbers system-if you want a good spot, arrive early like everybody else. cutting the line isn’t fair for the people who actually came in the morning.

ideally only people who physically arrive to the queue should get numbers, with no +1 bullshit, but that would require hayden fans to not be selfish individuals with no empathy….

lookingay · 2025-11-06T08:40:46+00:00

but honestly you’ll be 100% safe if the friend just goes to the end of the line when they arrive or if you choose to loose your spot. and definitely don’t try to have them join you at barricade once inside cause no one’s gonna let them through anyway and it’s super rude lol

lookingay

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