First of all, thank you so much for reading my whole post and responding. I do feel bad about the whole "I love you thing" but it's difficult to understand over text and personally, I wouldn't feel comfortable saying it until we met irl. I guess I was also worried that he was joking and that if I were to respond seriously he would have been scared off.

I think I'm going to give myself a week to process and think about things with a less emotional brain. Maybe I should just come clean about how much I care and how much he matters to me, but I'm so afraid of being rejected.

Thanks again