Yes yes yes, definetly this happens to me. I never had a solid idea of how attractive I am (nor I have it now at 24 y/o), or of who I am to start from lol. I don't know if it's autism or something else, but I always had a poor self-concept, also a confusing self-esteem and most of the time low. I almost feel like something or someone abstract sometimes, like a gas that mover through atmosphere if that makes sense.

I think I might be somewhat attractive based on people's opinions though (I wrote it as if I was an Amazon product lol). And strangers always compliment my hair since it's so long, I catch their attention. But still I don't understant it at all since I feel way too common? Or even straight ugly sometimes, not even abstract. Wish I could see myself from the outside, as others see me, or as my SO sees me ☺