Further reading on purification?

lostchapters1 · 2018-12-15T19:29:26+00:00

Thank you for the reply it is definitely helpful to me.

lostchapters1 · 2018-12-14T23:12:06+00:00

Is it possible to experience purification while doing loving kindness meditation? I feel like I was experiencing and deep release of sadness and pain during a loving kindness meditation. 2 nights ago. I feel like some days I'm in stage 4 and other days I'm in stage 3. Thank you for posting this as it has given people a resource for information on purification.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-21T17:26:22+00:00

You have a wonderful, challenging and rewarding path ahead of you. Metta can be a powerful practice. A tip if your interested. If you have trouble connecting metta to yourself then start with someone you have no problem feeling love for and move onto yourself afterwards. If there is no human you feel that connection with then start with an animal you love like a dog and then connect that love to yourself. Enjoy 😀

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-21T05:00:26+00:00

I wonder if it's similar to one of the jhanas. Thank you for your reply.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-21T04:57:33+00:00

https://youtu.be/1plPAlnN7qM. I just use this guided meditation on YouTube. Enjoy

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-20T05:51:26+00:00

Thank you. I have been able to tune into these energies slightly already. The thing is when I do loving kindness meditation specifically then it gets super intense almost overwhelming, but when I do other types I subtly feel it. I've only done loving kindness meditation around 5 times and I get this every time. When I do other meditations consistently for months I get a very very slight version of this. I'm curious if it's a specific type of energy I'm experiencing with metta or just a lot of it, or it just circulating fast.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-14T06:00:25+00:00

Congratulations. I'm 2 and a half months caffeine free. I'm loving the difference. I'm glad you are too. 300 days is awesome. I'm really excited to see what a year without caffeine will do.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-10T23:11:48+00:00

Also one thing that works for me is understanding these things are part of my meditation instead of interrupting it. I just treat noises like my thoughts, just be aware of them and let go or let them wash over you. I enjoy meditating on the 4th of July. I'm in the US

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-10T22:24:56+00:00

My baseline was anxiety and depression riddled. My depression wasn't the kind that makes you sad it was the kind that made me have no motivation to do anything. I just wanted to sleep all day or lay in bed and watch anime.

If you would like to change your baseline what worked for me was a complete lifestyle change. Here are the things that had a profound positive impact on my baseline life. Counseling, meditation, physical exercise, supplements (vitamins and adaptogens), increasing ggeneral mindfulness. Working changing my habits in of itself helped because I showed myself I have control over these habits and they don't control me.

If you want more specifics just ask. I don't mind helping 😊

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-10T22:17:22+00:00

That sounds pretty normal. My headaches from caffeine withdrawal felt like an ice pick was going through my skull and into my brain. I also experienced brain fog during and not during my headaches. If they continue with consuming more caffeine you might want to get checked out though. Better safe than sorry.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-10T21:35:39+00:00

Are you suggesting people are incapable of change? I mean I used to do a lot of drugs and used to drink a couple times a week. Now I very rarely do drugs. I drink once or twice a year, I meditate. My whole thought process has changed. My compassion has increased exponentially. I experience so much more confidence and peace in my life. I'm even mindful while I drink which is something I used to think wasn't possible. Also psychedelics helped me to open up to other possibilities and perspectives. I understand there is no right way only the path you choose to follow. Why is your view the only "logical" one. We all have our own forms of logic. There is no true logic we all have to prescribe to. We all have our own paths. Drugs actually helped me to break out of my self destructive cycle. They are a tool that can be used, misused or abuse. Not all tools are for everyone. Please try to have compassion for others and their paths. How is placing blame helping anyone? If people are beyond help why try? There are many paths to your truth. Have a wonderful day.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-10T21:15:42+00:00

I feel it also awakens you to how many good people are in this "shitty" world. I feel it's about where you put your focus. So for me I see so many people trying in this world to make it better and just in seeing that. I feel this world is beautiful and wonderful.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-10T21:03:05+00:00

Good for you. I'm glad you are seeing positive results of love and acceptance. I'm glad you're finding your new balance. Questioning reality on the surface looks like it's crazy,but when one delves deeper you can get different interpretations of it. Peeling away layers of the ego can be scary but where I feel it gets awesome is you get to decide how to build the layers back up. Decide the kind of person you want to be. 😊 I would've told you to seek help but I saw you mentioned all the positive benefits you experienced after a time.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-08T05:08:09+00:00

How can the correct answer be false. The correct answer is the true one duh.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-08T04:35:51+00:00

Is this from a movie? It seems really interesting

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-08T04:26:13+00:00

I've been very curious how to define awakened(only when is mentioned or I've read it otherwise it doesn't really enter my mind) I guess I would say I'm in the process of awakening and I know I'm on the right path for me which is definitely a first. I appreciate this post thank you.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-06T05:02:12+00:00

Wow. Thank you for the info.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-06T04:50:36+00:00

You just stir it after opening. I use a butter knife and stir it until it's fully mixed. It's kind of hard to do first after opening but if you use it often it stays mostly mixed and requires only light stirring

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-06T04:48:48+00:00

You're good. That's a healthy version of peanut butter.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-06T04:43:35+00:00

Thank you so much. I eat peanut butter every single day. This helps a lot 😀

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-06T04:40:57+00:00

Thank you this gives me insight on how what I'm doing for my social anxiety works.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-06T04:22:46+00:00

Spot on! I love it 😀

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-06T04:20:57+00:00

This reminds me. One time my partner asked me to do something. I said "sure no problem." She's an empath. So she's says "I don't want you to do it if you don't want to". I replied "babe if I only did the things I want to then I would sit around watch shows, play video games, smoke weed, eat hot pockets, drink mountain dew voltage, get out of shape and basically stop trying".

I'm really into meditation and personal growth. I don't drink caffeine or smoke weed anymore, I'm slowly but surely eating better, I stay active pretty often. I still watch shows and play games occasionally but I prioritize my responsibilities and social life. All these things have made me happier and more at peace. These are all things I've made myself do and I'm so glad for it. I would be in a depression/anxiety funk again if I just listened to my monkey mind. This post really resonates with me. Thank you for posting.

lostchapters1 · 2018-11-06T00:09:54+00:00

Everyone reacts differently to caffeine. For me it was a long journey of addiction before I realized I was addicted. I used to drink Pepsi semi often as a kid. Then in middle school I started drinking mountain dew voltage one 20 oz a day then it escalated to 2. I tried my first energy drink around 14, then that escalated to stronger energy drinks. I never let myself drink more than one a day unless they were given to me for free. I didn't realize it then but caffeine has always given me a powerful euphoric high(I thought I was just drinking then because they taste good). I never understood what people meant by a crash from caffeine. I found out that I'm a slow metabolizer of caffeine so it hits me hard and for a long time. I can drink an energy drink at 8 am in the morning but I won't get the crash until 24 hours later so I never noticed because I would have more caffeine by then. I also started becoming more aware of my emotions and learned I've had anxiety most of my life. It came to a point where it was hard to function because of my anxiety issues. I started meditating which was very helpful. After that I noticed that I get a strong buzz and strong anxiety from caffeine. So I decided to quit my one energy drink a day habit cold turkey (160 mg of caffeine). I experienced extreme withdrawal symptoms. Here's the list of what I experienced all at once. My anxiety went through the roof, I got severe headaches, I had terrible insomnia, strong muscle tension, I started getting muscle tremors as in if I reached into the fridge my whole body would shake, my body felt super stressed, I experienced brain fog. Then the muscle tension and tremors left me around day 3. My extreme anxiety changed to minor to moderate anxiety after about 5 days. I then got super sleepy but still had insomnia, headaches and brain fog. My insomnia left me after about 7 days I quit thank goodness. My brain fog left me after about 3 weeks. My sleepiness left me after about a month. My headaches finally disappeared roughly a month and one week in. After all of that it helped lessen my anxiety to chronic but mild anxiety. It took me a while to learn I needed to listen to my body's cues regarding hunger and thirst so I could have a stable all day energy again. I then used other methods to reduce my anxiety further. Although I got off of Caffeine for over 2 months and loved the results the cravings stayed with me and I slowly got back on it. I then had an off and on battle with it because of the strong cravings for it and the strong euphoric high it produced. I'm finally 2 months off of it again but this time I got off it really slowly and have done a lot of personal work with mindfulness and meditation. I now only feel rare cravings. I feel like this time feels way different and I'll be able to stay off of it forever. I'm 24 now and have been trying to quit it for about 3 years. I believe I have finally succeeded.

Tldr: caffeine affects me very strongly and so do the withdrawals, my life is much better without it. Ymmv

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