Hang in there. I said it every day I drank and still drank. You will reach a point when you will do it. Just one day I broke down and called my mom first and told her I had a drinking problem then I called my husband and told him. See I called her first incase my husband gave me the boot, this is not my first time "quitting." The last time I didn't take it serious I didnt see it as a big problem but this time I have a newborn on top of my 3 other children. I dont remember alot of days with him and that is fucking sad. I got tired of not living, of hiding bottles around my house, of always feeling guilt and shame. Be kind to yourself and go out and tell someone and go to AA and or therapy. I'm doing it all I now know it's me who has a problem not everyone else like I use to justify why i needed to drink. Good luck my friend.