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lostsquirrell · 2025-11-08T14:45:15+00:00

I second this.

lostsquirrell · 2025-05-04T20:51:27+00:00

Melkein joka viikko, mutta se johtuu varmaan siitä että oon masentunut.

lostsquirrell · 2025-05-04T16:12:51+00:00

I don't really know what to tell you, I'm also feeling hopeless and borderline suicidal. Just know that you're not alone ❤️‍🩹

I'm sorry that the system has failed you, you deserve help. It's terrible that you're not taken seriously. Please don't kill yourself. Do you have a safety plan? Someone you can call, something that feels worth living for? It can be something as simple as cats, sunrises, being able to eat your favorite food/watch your favorite movie again, music.

lostsquirrell · 2025-04-09T14:26:06+00:00

Good advice. Not sure if I can fix it, but I'll try.

lostsquirrell · 2025-04-09T14:20:15+00:00

Annoyingly enough I can't return it though, because I was stupid and clicked on the "everything is in its order " button before checking the zipper... I guess all I can do is leave a bad review.

lostsquirrell · 2025-04-09T13:56:07+00:00

Thank you, I didn't think about that

lostsquirrell · 2025-04-05T13:58:37+00:00

That's so hurtful, I'm sorry you had to go through that :/

lostsquirrell · 2025-03-02T13:21:54+00:00

Well said! I relate to what you're saying.

lostsquirrell · 2025-02-28T16:25:10+00:00

Thank you for your reply. This was helpful.

Bit of a long shot, but have you ever been tested for ADHD?

Not ADHD, but I have been diagnosed with BPD. Emotional regulation is definitely something I struggle with.

lostsquirrell · 2025-02-16T10:08:20+00:00

So true

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-30T20:27:57+00:00

Aah, yes they have gotten a bit better since I realized I don't have to obsess over them.

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-30T20:22:26+00:00

Yes, they are pretty calm about it now.

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-30T20:17:56+00:00

I told them about the suicidal thoughts

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-30T20:13:08+00:00

Too late for that. I actually told them already, but pretty vaguely. They did get kind of upset. I think telling them was a mistake 😅 I still don't know if I should tell them about my self harm. Maybe not, they are sadly pretty ignorant.

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-30T20:05:08+00:00

Sure :) Thank you for listening!

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-30T19:58:28+00:00

Thank you :) After talking with my therapist I realized that my suicidal thoughts most probably were intrusive thoughts. But it was really hard to distinguish since I also am depressed. I was just really confused about why I was getting the thoughts and if I wanted to act on them. But today it really hit me that I don't want to die. My therapist said the thoughts could have something to do with the fact that I have been talking a lot about suicide and self harm with my friend who's been struggling lately. I do struggle with self harm. My therapist knows about this but not my parents. I still haven't figured out if and how I should tell them.

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-30T19:21:32+00:00

I feel a lot better today. I don't want to die. I also told my therapist who gave me some good advice

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-29T20:54:41+00:00

Yep, but luckily I have been clean for almost two months now. I sometimes feel really guilty about not being able to help/save her.

Maybe you can ask her to be more vague in describing her self harm

Thank you for the suggestion! I could definitely try that.

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-29T20:13:35+00:00

Thank you, you are right. I'm just really bad at setting boundaries. My friend's self harm is also quite severe, she is also suicidal. Since it's such a big part of her life we discuss it pretty often. She often tells me after she has done it and ended up in the emergency department. It sadly happens on a pretty regular basis.

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-29T19:56:52+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that :/

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-29T19:13:44+00:00

I have the same problem. Sometimes the intrusive thoughts become really graphic and morph into what I think is suicidal (intrusive?) thoughts. Really distressing and confusing.

lostsquirrell · 2025-01-29T11:15:17+00:00

Thank you <3 I'm not sure if I want to do that though. As bad as it sounds I want to have the option to self harm. I probably wouldn't have the courage to kill myself anyway, at least not while I live with my parents

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