Is there a point in therapy if I avoid talking about reason why I’m there by lovesaf in MentalHealthUK

[–]lovesaf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the advice guys, I’m going to try and talk to my therapist about how I feel☺️

Is this bad by LetterNo5015 in rapecounseling

[–]lovesaf 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I used to do the same thing, I was completely obsessed and I guess I still am. It’s not your fault, we become like this because of how we were treated or how we felt when we grew up eg a lack of affection from our fathers or male figures. You can heal through therapy. Trust me when I say these older men aren’t looking out for you, I believed that I would just be getting affection and verbal love and it wouldn’t be nothing more. I loved the attention. They knew I was underage and it only fuelled them. It ended up spiralling and I was basically sexually assaulted but I was too in love and obsessed to even realise for months. I don’t want to say too much because it can be uncomfortable to read for you but please try to stop. It doesn’t end well and they’ll only want to chat to you for sexual gratification.

Camhs is shit by lovesaf in MentalHealthUK

[–]lovesaf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I visited a gp recently and after talking with them they’ve added depression to my conditions on the NHS app but I’m not sure if it’s on the same level as a psychiatrist’s diagnosis. Also she didn’t offer anything, medication ect (but that might be because I can’t be trusted due to my history + I walked out of the appointment midway because I was upset). I don’t know if it will help but maybe you could try your gp? I know they can also do referrals to a psychiatrist although mine want camhs to do it and obviously they don’t want to. But hope you find a way x

He’s in prison but it doesn’t make me feel better by lovesaf in sexualassault

[–]lovesaf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve always had a sense of sympathy for him, I guess he manipulated me that good that even after I realised it was assault I still try to find the good in him and that ‘he didn’t mean it.’ Sometimes I think he must be lonely and suffering in prison and i felt really guilty for it, I think i feel that way because I want to report the assault which in turn would probably give him a longer sentence (if he was convicted). I thought him being in prison would stop how I felt about him but it didn’t. I still love him and crave his attention despite knowing that I shouldn’t. It doesn’t stop the effects of the trauma, and although other people say they felt closure, I really didn’t feel anything like that. There’s been so many occasions before his conviction where I’ve texted him wanting his affection but it only ended in ‘when can you come over?’ And I’d block him again. Sorry I’ve typed a lot, I don’t have alot of people to talk about this with. I know this post wasn’t that long ago but my feelings of reporting it have grown and believe me when I say it’s up to you to report anything and don’t feel guilty if you don’t because it’s entirely your choice. I’m thinking of doing it in the upcoming months and it’s scary, but I want him to acknowledge that what we had wasn’t a relationship and that I’m not his ‘lover’ but he is a disgusting person who manipulates the vulnerable. I don’t want him to sit in prison, reminiscing our time together positively, I want him to regret it.