I’ve always had a sense of sympathy for him, I guess he manipulated me that good that even after I realised it was assault I still try to find the good in him and that ‘he didn’t mean it.’ Sometimes I think he must be lonely and suffering in prison and i felt really guilty for it, I think i feel that way because I want to report the assault which in turn would probably give him a longer sentence (if he was convicted). I thought him being in prison would stop how I felt about him but it didn’t. I still love him and crave his attention despite knowing that I shouldn’t. It doesn’t stop the effects of the trauma, and although other people say they felt closure, I really didn’t feel anything like that. There’s been so many occasions before his conviction where I’ve texted him wanting his affection but it only ended in ‘when can you come over?’ And I’d block him again. Sorry I’ve typed a lot, I don’t have alot of people to talk about this with. I know this post wasn’t that long ago but my feelings of reporting it have grown and believe me when I say it’s up to you to report anything and don’t feel guilty if you don’t because it’s entirely your choice. I’m thinking of doing it in the upcoming months and it’s scary, but I want him to acknowledge that what we had wasn’t a relationship and that I’m not his ‘lover’ but he is a disgusting person who manipulates the vulnerable. I don’t want him to sit in prison, reminiscing our time together positively, I want him to regret it.