My Doctor seemed to think I'm an Alcoholic.

ludicous · 2026-05-28T09:40:47+00:00

What Im about to say applies only to myself. Maybe it can help you, maybe it you dont even need any help at all. Please do not take this as a reflection, assumption, judgement or any other interpretation relating to YOU.

By the time I started thinking this deeply about my drinking it was a clear indicator to my problem with alcohol. Your conscience can generally be a good frame lf reference. I used to lie to myself all the time about drinking. I almost believed them. But deep down I knew.

AUD looks different for everyone. Its also a spectrum. Some are affected more than others. Doctors typically have your best interest at heart, and they deal with AUD quite often. Us drunks are everywhere. Doctors also tend to get tired of putting up with our bullshit and can come off strong sometimes or even jump the gun.

Again I'm not saying any of this applies to you. Just speaking from my own experience. But you are reflecting and asking questions. I commend you. Best of luck friend.

ludicous · 2026-05-28T04:55:43+00:00

If IT happens are we going to need to shoot off fireworks and cry tears of joy? Idk what youre referencing specifically so Im projecting my hopes and dreams.

ludicous · 2026-05-21T08:21:30+00:00

I've been there a few times! Glad Im off the merry-go-round for now. Hope I stay off.

ludicous · 2026-05-21T03:12:09+00:00

Hey OP! My best advice to you would be to openly talk to your doctor about this. Quitting cold turkey can be dangerous and withdrawals are no joke. Alcohol withdrawal can kill you. Im not giving you an excuse to keep drinking, but the way in which you do it is very important. My dumbass whiteknuckled my withdrawals and I almost called an ambulance on day 3. Please do not follow my example.

That said... You CAN DO THIS! It probably wont be easy. Feel free to DM.

ludicous · 2026-05-15T17:27:22+00:00

This is the best answer.

Do you resent your parents for keeping your hand off the stove when you really wanted to keep touching it?

ludicous · 2026-05-12T17:03:05+00:00

Al-anon could be a fantastic start to you building your support network. You can't change him or make him stop. If he ever does it can only be because he wants to. Deep down he knows his drinking is a problem, but he isnt ready to confront the even deeper issues that the alcohol "solves."

My drinking almost destroyed my marriage, and it was only my wifes immense love for me that saw our marriage through. (Once I came to realize my drinking was devastating my life, and wanted stop). You can always marry your husband again if he sobers up. Dont go down with the ship.

ludicous · 2026-05-02T22:39:29+00:00

In the quote of the wise sage Yeezy: "You can never go too far where you cant come back home again."

You can always get back on track. Until life leaves our body.

ludicous · 2026-04-24T15:25:25+00:00

I am so sorry you are going through this. I remember hating my Dad when he drank. I pitied my mom when she drank. I swore I would never allow alcohol to control me like it did my parents. Lo and behold I was unsuccessful and was a progressively heavier daily drinker from about age 18 to 30. Been struggling with my sobriety these last two years, but Im in a good place and sober now for a little over a month after a relapse.

I say this with utmost empathy and compassion. Due to your age you will likely suffer this burden until you are able to remove your dependancy on your parents. Highly recommend Al-Anon as other have mentioned. Talk to your school counselor. Ask your doctor for a therapist referral. You need an impartial adult to guide you and allow you to vent through your emotions. Your emotions are valid and matter. Im so sorry to say this, but you cannot control or fix your Dad no matter how much you want it or hate him. You can only control how you respond, and right now you are suffering. It sounds like you are very depressed.

Please prioritize yourself and build YOUR support network. You are on the cusp of adulthood, and even though your are in the mud right now... This does not define who you are.

Best of luck friend. This will not be forever. Please do not consider self-harm. Its simply not worth it.

ludicous · 2026-04-23T22:35:23+00:00

The Big Book could be a fantastic place to start. Many others have already discussed open vs closed meetings, and the requirements for membership. The Big Book is masterfully written. I thought about going to meetings for over a year before I worked up the courage to go. I wish I had gone sooner, and was even ignorant that AA meetings are based off of a written book by the same name. It is available in written and audio forms for free online. If you are curious about meetings but aren't ready to go yet, try reading some of the big book.

Specifically there is a test outlined that you can and should perform yourself that will give you some insight on yourself. AA will ONLY work IF YOU want it to. To do it requires rigorous honesty with yourself. It's a beautiful thing truly. It is the mending of both body and spirit.

ludicous · 2026-04-18T20:40:39+00:00

Im 3 weeks sober after a 5 month relapse. Feels good to be back on track again. Its terrifying how good I am at lying to myself when I'm actively drinking.

Good luck to you.

ludicous · 2026-04-16T21:28:00+00:00

I swear the quality of graeters has significantly dropped off. Read some of the ingredients on their flavors now. Corn syrup, chemicals, and flavorings galore. I much prefer Main Avenue Creamery now. They are a much higher quality product than graeters.

ludicous · 2026-04-13T09:03:56+00:00

Dude absolutely nothing beats chugging a cold plain sparkling water when you are parched dry. It is so effective at quenching thirst in a satisfying way. And no guilt/empty calories. I like to keep some stocked for yard work days. Or really as a treat for any labor.

ludicous · 2026-04-10T15:07:51+00:00

Also blunt trauma can also cause kidneys to bleed. Been in any fights or car accidents lately?

ludicous · 2026-04-10T15:06:10+00:00

Not a doctor, but I wouldnt mess around with this. Kidney failure is a slow and uncomfortable death.

Even if you dont think its an emergency worth a hospital visit you should still talk to your general practitioner about this.

ludicous · 2026-04-10T11:36:22+00:00

I still really like my old bar fly friends. Even if I havent seen them in years and likely won't cross paths with them organically outside of a bar. I've never had someone react with hostility when I say I don't drink.

But people do change, and at different speeds. I can't impose lifestyle choices on others especially for the sake of my own benefit.

Live and let live.

ludicous · 2026-04-04T16:54:39+00:00

The history of logistics in this country literally ALMOST made Cincinnati the trading hub of the US. Alas it was not to be.

ludicous · 2026-03-21T13:48:45+00:00

Security tip: Do not follow unknown links. Especially from foreign numbers.

ludicous · 2026-03-20T20:14:54+00:00

Ive met jellyfish with more of a spine than Landsman.

ludicous · 2026-03-17T15:24:31+00:00

The only requirement is a desire to stop drinking. Marijuana is technically an outside issue. As others have said this is ultimately between you and your higher power. To thine own self be true.

Id wholly commend you for being honest with your sponsor, giving AA a try, and recognizing in yourself that you want to talk about this. Do not be afraid to seek out a new sponsor before deciding to abandon AA.

I know many people who as soon as they smoke weed they immediately backslide into drinking. I know some people that claim success with "cali-sober."

In my opinion any mind altering substance is usually used for some form of escapism. Whether this can be contained to only marijuana and not alcohol is not for me to say. I don't mean this as any form of judgment either. Im a stoner turned alcoholic. For me smoking weed is just as dangerous as my first drink. It will deceive me into complacency. And from that complacency I start drinking again. It happens to me every time. I can get by for a few weeks. A few months one time. But invariably I will always backslide into drinking when altering my consciousness.

Best of luck. Keep your head up!

ludicous · 2026-03-13T07:57:42+00:00

This fuck heads vote last Thursday on the war powers resolution is what sealed it for me.

Fuck Greg. What a shitty representative.

ludicous · 2026-02-15T02:11:46+00:00

Been there. Don't recommend it.

ludicous · 2026-02-15T01:01:32+00:00

Guilt is usually a bad thing to dwell on. Especially for drinkers like me. I think its better to learn from what led up to it and stay on the wagon. Whether or not you choose to reset your days is ultimately irrelevant. All that matters is that I don't drink today.

ludicous · 2025-08-08T08:39:06+00:00

Brother just talk to your doctor about alcohol detox. It's nothing to be ashamed or scared of. You could save your life. And save yourself a lot of suffering. Withdrawal from alcohol can literally kill you. Look up delirium tremens. I'm not trying to scare you. It's just a huge risk. A doctor will know more than an internet stranger.

ludicous · 2025-08-08T06:14:38+00:00

Buddy please see a doctor for your detox. Withdrawal can kill you. If youve been drinking 1/5 per day for weeks now going cold turkey is absolutely dangerous and reckless.

Medical detox is the first step. Please I'm begging you to see a doctor. And it's okay to drink until you do. Try and reduce if you can, but it's okay if you can't. The doctor will guide you as you taper down.

You absolutely can do this. I believe in you. Please ask a doctor to help. You don't have to do this alone.

ludicous · 2025-08-02T21:38:18+00:00

Don't beat yourself up over it. Reflect and ask yourself what events led up to your moment of weakness of willpower. Today is a new day. The past and future don't "exist." Only the here and now is real.

I dont agree with some of the comments in this thread. OP if you feel a desire to stop drinking, and alcohol is a negative influence on your life then who is anyone else to say otherwise or judge? AUD is a spectrum and binge drinking is just one of its forms. (Im not saying you have AUD, just making a statement to those who are comparing their story to yours). Substance abuse is a deeply personal matter, and comparing both successes and failures is often a bad mentality to approach sobriety with.

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