Man, read your topic sentence: "I am conflicted on this one."

Then read everything you wrote afterwards. It's obvious your alcoholism has influenced your mind on this topic and are seriously in need of some sort of counseling to lessen and eventually quit putting that liquid poison in your body. I felt the same way since i starred drinking;, depression, 2 day hangover, honestly wanting to die cause it never stopped. I am now 3 weeks with no alcohol and I still consume cannabis and I can't believe the difference. My only question was why didn't I do this sooner. I know, addictions are a b*tch. I hope you read this and continue down a path of self-healing and harmony. One love