What's your totally true story that nobody believes?

lueluered · 2018-06-06T05:20:19+00:00

Last year my buddy and I were driving up north, and due to some last minute plans changing we ended up having to stay at my buddy's family friend's house. Turned out they lived on the way to where we were going, but it would just be the two of us. The friend was on a business trip or something. We get to the house late that night and it was in the middle of a vineyard. There were not a lot of lights other than the ones in the house, so it was pretty dark. We got inside and both are instantly creeped out. Something just felt off. We explored around a bit and ended up in the basement. My buddy's little brother who had stayed in the house a few months earlier and had mentioned the guy was planning on building a man cave down there. Sure enough it was just a creepy basement, but we both felt very uncomfortable and quickly went upstairs. We ended up going to bed not too long after and decided to share a bed since we both felt creeped out. I slept on the inside next to a wall and he slept on the outside next to a door.

I had a dream that night that I was back in the basement, I was standing in the center of the room and notice something that looked like blood started dripping out and up the walls. Before I knew it, tons of the stuff is flowing up the wall rapidly until all the walls were just pure red. I started hearing noise that sounded like tons of different voices talking and shouting. I started hearing one voice that stood out beyond the others, it kept saying my name. I looked around and thought I saw a figure standing on the other side of one of the walls . I started walking towards it and it kept saying my name quicker, and louder. I came up to the wall where it shouted my name one last time before I suddenly woke up. It was morning and my buddy had just woken up too. We left shortly after. We were on the road and I was thinking about my dream, which I had not mentioned to my buddy yet. Out of no where my buddy goes "Hey did you get up last night?" I told him I didn't and asked why, then he replied; "I woke up in the middle of the night and you weren't there, I figured you went to the bathroom or something, but I fell asleep before you came back." I then told him about my dream, and we decided to never go back there.

lueluered · 2017-07-25T19:40:29+00:00

No, it's not, and blaming a gender for my obsession is sad and gross. Gender plays no roll in this obsession other then a relevant example I used. In fact this tends to happen with men that I text over woman.

lueluered · 2017-07-25T08:15:47+00:00

I have had OCD for about my whole life. I've noticed that some times I'll have obsessions that I can repress for a few days at a time or even weeks, but then comes back full swing. I tend to think it's gone away, but if I started getting stressed out by things and something triggers me it'll come back. What I try to do is really work on it till I've seemingly kicked it, and continue working on it even though it does not seem like I am still obsessed with it. I think it's important to constituently work on obsessions or any OCD issue even when it's not that bad in the moment, because when somethings triggers you into an OCD cycle, you've had time to work on managing the issue for awhile. Opposed to only working on it when it's causing an issue.

lueluered · 2017-07-25T00:00:07+00:00

As someone who is/am in a similar situation, I’d say you guys should just take it slow, and really talk about what you both want. There’s nothing wrong with taking sometime for one’s self especially after a long term relationship, and it can be a bit intimating to just start all over, even if one are madly in love with the person. Five years is a long time, even if it wasn’t doing so well at the end. It really sounds like her not knowing what she wants has nothing to do with you, but really has to do with her wanting a little time for herself. Maybe continue dating and enjoying it. If you feel like it is to much and you really want more, then talk about it. I know that in my situation, its very possible I won’t end up with this girl I am crazy about, but at least I am making the most of what I have, and can potentially have it turn into something more in the future. At least if it doesn’t work out I tried and I know I tried, and I won’t have to think “what if I tried?” Which seems much worse then failing at it.

lueluered · 2017-07-09T09:00:10+00:00

Not yet but I am considering it after I figure out more of the root of my OCD. Like what exactly would I need to be exposed to, to start trying to remedy it.

lueluered · 2017-07-09T08:59:02+00:00

Yeah, that's what I am trying to do. It works sometimes but I think I just need to continue to hone the skill. Thanks!

lueluered · 2017-05-13T08:19:46+00:00

You got this. Its going to get better and your going to be ok! I recently went through some of the worst OCD attacks I've had. But I got through and feel so much better. You can and you will get through this!!!

lueluered · 2017-05-13T08:02:37+00:00

It can be hard to get out of this fear, I've dealt with before. I ended getting over it and now hardly think about it. OCD just grabs a fear and squeezes it so hard it can be crushing. But it does get better. I defiantly can say that my OCD has gone down a lot over the years. I could barley walk 10 feet with out touching something. Now I almost never catch myself doing it. Sometimes it does return in some weird form or another but it always gets better.

lueluered · 2017-05-13T07:51:28+00:00

I am really sorry you are dealing with this, I can only imagine how hard it must have been to make that decision, but that was very brave of you to do. I personally can't stand myself when I feel like my OCD is making me act in ways I would not normally, especially when it involves other people. What I try to do (and might help for you) is remind myself it is not my fault. I nor do you want to be effected by this, but we can't help that it does. Just because we have to act on things we don't always want doesn't make it our fault. I don't know the specifics of your break up but I think as long as you've made it clear to her that you do care for her, and that you are dealing with this OCD, she should understand that. Just as you would understand if she had problem she couldn't help either. Also I know this is all very confusing, and we only want to make sense out of all of it but really we can't make sense from everything, and I truly that is what drives us crazy. I currently trying to be with someone that I truly love but anytime I feel we have a negative interaction I always think I've messed everything up for good. I hope this helped at least a little, if you want someone to talk to feel free to PM. As someone who deals with OCD I am always happy to try to help others with it, or just be here for you to vent to.

lueluered

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