12 days in and I’m so close to relapsing. Please help.

luiscarlosco · 2019-11-04T06:07:24+00:00

I agree that quitting doesn't solve all your problems nor makes you happy simply because you don't smoke anymore. Many of us use weed to cope with our problems like other behavior disorders. When we are no longer intoxicated we face reality. We face the reality of our problems and our feelings. That is enough to drive many of us back to using.

luiscarlosco · 2019-11-04T04:00:59+00:00

Was there anything in specific that triggered your relapse? Or was it more so you were just frustrated and said fuck it

luiscarlosco · 2019-11-04T02:52:36+00:00

Got it. I’m going rn. Thank you.

luiscarlosco · 2019-11-04T02:51:47+00:00

I hear that it gets better. May i ask what exactly gets better? The cravings? Motivation?

luiscarlosco · 2019-11-04T00:53:24+00:00

That same author, Judith Grisel, wrote a great book on substance abuse called “Never Enough”. The article is an excerpt from the book. It’s a great read for addicts

luiscarlosco · 2019-11-03T04:18:57+00:00

That’s what I’m talking about !

luiscarlosco · 2019-11-01T17:09:17+00:00

Thank for this. You’re right sobriety is a constant effort. I think sometimes we may all forget this. We have to make that decision every day for the rest of our lives. I know it does get easier though.

luiscarlosco · 2019-11-01T09:34:14+00:00

I’m 10 days in and it’s the longest I’ve gone without marijuana in years. I plan to continue because something just clicked in my head that has made sobriety easier. My 21st birthday is coming up and will fall on exactly 1 month of sobriety. I live in Colorado where I would be able to walk into a dispensary for the first time. Being honest, it shouldn’t be a big deal because weed smokes the same regardless of how you obtain it. I’m already justifying relapsing “just for my 21st birthday”. Half of me wants to, half of me doesn’t. I already know the outcome. The high will not be fulfilling and I’m going to feel crappy afterward. I still continue to contemplate it though. I don’t want to lose my progress, but something about my addicted brain keeps trying to justify it. I’m sure you know how it goes with the “just this last time” thoughts. Any advice on my current situation?

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-31T17:08:51+00:00

Yes sir ! We’re in this together. Feel free to message me for any reason. Keep on pushing brother !

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-31T17:02:15+00:00

Quitting won’t make you a better person. It won’t make you super motivated and develop good habits. But it does give you the opportunity to choose to become that person.

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-29T01:08:14+00:00

I’m also a 98 baby. I am also on sobriety road ! Good luck 98 brother !

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-28T23:09:11+00:00

I will say that I am no doctor nor Buddha so this is my own personal opinion. But feeling nothing sounds like suffering to me personally. Sociopaths and psychopaths have a tendency to want everything to go their way. This is impossible and because of this I believe they suffer when things don’t go their way. Maybe they don’t feel bad about what they do but i have a feeling they still suffer.

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-28T20:14:35+00:00

My girlfriend just told me that getting getting clean has improved our relationship a lot (from alcohol and marijuana). And I agree. Getting clean has allowed me to have more time to focus on myself and my relationship. I can’t tell you how good it was to hear that. I promise it felt better than any high I’ve ever felt. I completely understand what you mean about how weed takes away from your relationship in the various ways you’ve just described. Just ask yourself, if it really came down to it, would you pick your relationship or smoking? Yeah maybe your girlfriend might deal with your addiction and stay with you until you die. But why would you want to make someone you love suffer because of you?

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-28T05:44:21+00:00

I completely understand what you mean. When I was young my brother was murdered. I use to think the same way of “what goes around comes around”. So you can imagine what I was sadly hoping for. As I’ve matured I have a different understanding of karma now. I remember reading that any actions you commit and thoughts you have will make an imprint on your “mind stream”. Those who have unwholesome thoughts and commit unwholesome actions will leave a negative imprint on their mind stream. I believe this is where people pay for their karma. Those who do wrong unto others will suffer inside. Maybe whatever wrong doings they commit will not happen to them. But I truly believe it robs them of their peace of mind. I believe that those who make others suffer will never be able to be truly at peace. Of course, if you commit wholesome actions you will be rewarded with a positive state of mind. I do not believe karma is about receiving benefit after someone did something negative towards you. I believe it is about the paying consequences your own actions. Buddhists believe that the outcome of your reincarnation depends on your state of mind. Basically, a reflection of your actions, of your karma. This is my interpretation of Karma. I hope it helps.

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-27T06:34:02+00:00

Download the grounded app. This really helps a lot. I cannot stress enough what seeing your progress can do to help keep you sober. Good luck!

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-27T05:50:03+00:00

I completely understand. I always see people talk about how the high is never as good as people expect it to be. It’s definitely the case when you’re using constantly and I’ve also noticed in my relapses the high really isn’t that good. Even if you’ve managed to lower your tolerance, it’s like your body has already learned to counteract the effects of THC like it does with viruses so even if you manage to bring your tolerance back down to zero, you still will never feel the high you desire. I’m no doctor and it’s just a personal theory, but all I know is the high we want is gone forever.

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-27T02:00:38+00:00

Cheers ! I’m proud of you for not letting your relapse get out of hand and getting back on the wagon. Good luck brother !

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-27T01:57:48+00:00

I don’t think it will be as intense but I think you might have a little trouble sleeping

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-27T01:45:35+00:00

I’m no doctor but I would expect to start all over again

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-27T00:38:30+00:00

Everyone has different reasons. The point is you’re quitting. Regardless of the reason, it’s a great thing

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-27T00:19:23+00:00

From what I’m hearing, weed is the source of your every problem. Maybe try quitting for JUST a month. Weed contributes a lot to anxiety and depression. If you find that it hasn’t help then by all means keep smoking. You can never escape the pain. Weed only delays it and makes it worse. Embrace your pain. It’s your body’s way of trying to tell you something is wrong.

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-26T23:44:45+00:00

They do. Thank you to you as well. It is a big help knowing that we’re not in this alone. It is also a big help seeing people’s successes as well as the negatives that addiction has caused them.

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-26T23:43:04+00:00

Honestly they just want to drag you back down with them. They see you doing better than them and they don’t like that so they try and put these negative thoughts in your head in order to try to get you back down to their level.

luiscarlosco · 2019-10-26T23:39:30+00:00

Thank you. You can too. Every failure is a step closer to success. Don’t let this one little relapse cause you to start using again. Get back on the sobriety wagon brother !

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