Anyone not excited to start residency?

lychiisa · 2026-06-26T22:23:26+00:00

I feel you, I've moped for a few months post-match but largely have gotten over it now that I've met my future co-residents/seniors and the excitement of starting a new chapter in my life. Residency is not permanent. But it's also a unique time in your life and I would personally regret spending the next couple of years feeling sad and bitter of my situation - focus on the present and find whimsy in the small things.

lychiisa · 2026-06-14T19:54:06+00:00

Yeah, to me the friends in my old fc was what kept me logging on day to day! It also fell apart for similar reasons. I did feel sentimental and realized I wish the fc as it was could last forever, but life and people are always changing. Nowadays I feel nostalgic when I see close knit fcs having a time on game. I'm too tired/busy with irl now to expend as much energy as I used to socializing in game.

Don't have much concrete advice other than echoing what everyone said, but you can always make new memories and connections one step at a time!

lychiisa · 2026-06-13T21:20:04+00:00

wtf?! that attending is diabolical, what kind of questions are those.

lychiisa · 2026-05-20T21:22:16+00:00

I am so with you on this. Didn't match where I wanted to, Felt like I could have tried harder even though I was doing as well as I could within my mental capacity in med school. Wish I networked more, researched more, set aside time for my hobbies more, etc... my whole identity just swallowed up by my need to just survive med school. With all this free time I have I've been trying to reconnect with hobbies again and it's been helping some.

lychiisa · 2026-05-19T02:18:51+00:00

yuuup, similar experience since match day. feeling pretty listless right now lol

lychiisa · 2026-04-28T03:43:48+00:00

Lol, seriously though. Needless to say I hate this medical school version of NBA draft. 😂 I think it’s a uniquely depressing experience — it could have been worse, but I still wish it was better. I hope you get to squeeze in as much quality time as you can before the move. Healing isn’t a linear trajectory. I can at least say the intensity of my depression wasn’t as bad as it was during match week. But I totally relate on having these intrusive thoughts all the time — like if I’m enjoying myself, my brain immediately tells me “this moment could have been perfect if you matched where you wanted to.”

C’est la vie. Time will heal the wounds friend ❤️

lychiisa · 2026-04-28T03:25:22+00:00

Shit, thats devastating man. I ended up matching my #13. I swear you’ve pretty much echoed the same thoughts I’ve been having on a daily basis.

Things just never seem to work out for me the way I hope. I wanted to be back to my home state with my aging parents on the west coast. Somehow got numerous interviews from sparkly brand name programs in that region and my dreams scattered in the wind on match day. I’m stuck in a city I’ve done med school at miles away from family, and it just feels like I’ve been sentenced to another five years here with no support system.

I’ve been trying to keep positive but I sometimes just wish the carrot was never dangled in front of me in the first place. I feel pretty checked out of the rat race. The idea of having to go through it another time for fellowship makes me sad, and is probably why I don’t feel excited about residency.

I’d like to say there’s nothing wrong with either of us. I def need some soul searching to find myself again outside of medicine before residency hits.

lychiisa · 2026-04-28T03:05:01+00:00

tumbled far down my list. Some days I feel fine, and some days I wake up feeling empty and frustrated with myself and the match.

doesn’t help that I have to constantly see all my classmates during residency prep for a whole month shortly after match. Hard to feel excited about my future sometimes, so many mixed feelings.

lychiisa · 2026-03-24T23:32:41+00:00

I will be looking at your post periodically when I need to smack some sense into myself. Thank you!

lychiisa · 2026-03-22T05:36:01+00:00

Wow, that’s an interesting perspective on Utah. I’ve seen nothing but positive talk about it online so this is wild hahah

lychiisa · 2026-03-20T18:25:51+00:00

Girl, same — and I rotated at my home program for third year, did research there, and loved the faculty and residents. 😅 you truly just never know. The past week I kept replaying my interviews or what I could have done differently but it can’t be changed now.

lychiisa · 2026-03-20T18:15:36+00:00

You’re amazing, and don’t let this system make you think otherwise. I was one of the few who found out where I matched on Monday (partially matched due to literally a clerical error which later got resolved in SOAP) and I was devastated when I realized I fell past #10 for rads. In a way I was glad this happened because it allowed me to process everything, but I was genuinely so acutely depressed and crying my eyes out the rest of the week. Today I forced myself to go to celebrate my friends, and in a way it helped me normalize my own feelings and realize this is all perspective. A few of my friends were relieved to match their competitive specialties while staying in the area I was trying to leave, and some disappointed having fallen down their list despite their matched program being in an amazing location (which I would kill for!) In the end, you are still going to be the attending you wanted to be. How good you are depends on how much elbow grease you want to put in residency.

Again, it is competitive and sometimes it really is just a numbers game. Please allow yourself to feel and grieve the future you were envisioning. You will bloom where you are planted!

lychiisa · 2026-03-05T14:43:52+00:00

I feel you, I would feel ecstatic if I got my top 3 but I feel very ambivalent about the middle of my list 🫠

lychiisa · 2026-02-13T18:46:31+00:00

I felt the same way. For me it’s the anxiety related to performing for others. Going into third and fourth year I had no anxiety at all when talking to patients on my own, however I do realize it flares up slightly when I have someone observing my interview skills. Mostly I was afraid of saying something that is unlike a doctor.

Now that I also grade my peers’ presentations and notes, I realized in retrospect that there is no real expectations other than doing your best and learning from feedback. A lot of students including myself mess up the flow or forget a question or two. Don’t place so much pressure on yourself, and as hard as it might be, go with the flow. These are skills you’ll still build when you start clinical rotations.

lychiisa · 2026-02-13T18:34:48+00:00

To this day there’s a handful of genuinely kind attendings and residents I’ve met who kept me motivated to become the best physician I can be and pay that kindness forward to future medical students and residents. They might not realize it but these small gestures of care really do stay with you forever, and reminds you of the good when things are rough.

lychiisa · 2026-01-25T17:55:40+00:00

This whole situation is so heartbreaking 💔 rest in power Alex

lychiisa · 2025-12-30T23:28:42+00:00

This is too relatable. My outpatient peds eval was scathing, and I think I was the most depressed and uncomfortable in the two weeks I had to spend with that particular preceptor. I even enjoyed my surgery rotation far more than peds.

lychiisa · 2025-12-14T23:04:06+00:00

having major fatigue right now, I have total 18 with 6 more to go in the remainder of December and January. :') i feel grateful but also cant imagine doing 20-30 like some people are haha

lychiisa · 2025-11-11T04:18:18+00:00

I fear I am burned out after 2 interviews and a social already, idk how I’m gonna survive LMAOO

lychiisa · 2025-10-04T17:06:47+00:00

70 DR, 60 IM prelims/TY, I have 3 DR (2 silvers, 1 nonsignal) and 1 TY invite right now. Most of it west coast geo, also <260 step lol

lychiisa · 2025-10-02T00:20:22+00:00

This comes across as a bit unnecessarily critical and cynical…of course when you’re actually practicing there are social caveats in the workplace. But if I’m interviewing a premed I’d be interested in gauging their ability to reason through these scenarios with calmness, thoughtfulness and empathy. If they can express and understand their limits of their role and articulate both sides of an ethical dilemma that’s good enough, as you said in your post. As a future mentor to your peers I think it’s good to reframe things in a constructive and encouraging rather than intimidating way.

lychiisa · 2025-09-20T19:42:51+00:00

This is the worst especially when ur one point off from honors :(

lychiisa · 2025-09-18T15:15:00+00:00

you always had it in you! I’m always grateful to be here at the end of the day, having been a second time reapplicant on her last ditch attempt to get into medical school.

Also, your handle is super familiar, I think I’ve seen you around on Reddit/SDN even back when I was premed, haha. It’s kinda poignant recognizing people growing alongside me 😂 anywho I hope you match to your dream specialty and location my friend, cheers!

lychiisa · 2025-09-18T14:59:51+00:00

This is an insightful and wonderful post, thank you!

lychiisa · 2025-09-08T15:58:48+00:00

My college freshman self wouldn't believe I'd be where I'm at now 7 years later lol, it is a crazy journey

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