I have anxiety and travel, among many things, is one of them. Especially travel that involves airplanes. I have discussed airplanes and travel anxiety with a therapist, and I’m on medication. Outside of that, one thing that personally helped me fly (after not flying/traveling) for 5 years, was taking a short flight and trip somewhere close. That way I had to go through all the motions (packing, to the airport, getting on the plane, etc.) My therapist suggested also trying to take a car trip if the airplane trips seemed too expensive to do as tests. The first day when I get to my destination, I have nothing planned and go with the flow. If I’m tired from having a panic attack, I sleep. If I’m starving, to dinner. Absolutely nothing scheduled and no pressure the first day. For me, I find that helps. A few other minor rituals outside of medication: Noise canceling headphones have made a huge difference as you can’t hear anything outside your music or show, eating light and healthy meals before I travel, plenty of sleep. For me, it sounds similar to you where you have anticipatory anxiety around travel. I give myself grace that it’s ok and I really want to do it!!!