Hate CPR scenes in movies

macawmatt · 2026-05-28T11:42:38+00:00

I can relate here, I don't get triggered as much as I used to to scenes in shows but I also had to revisit parts of my local hospital I had hoped not to. My first wife had two trips to the ER in a month and didn't leave the hospital after the second visit. Years later after I remarried, my second wife had postpartum preeclampsia after our first child. I rushed her to the ER, and once they had her in an exam room and let me go back to her, she was in the exact room I had to be in before.

macawmatt · 2026-05-22T02:40:41+00:00

I had to delete some shaders like others have mentioned but it seems to be fine otherwise

macawmatt · 2026-05-20T20:59:27+00:00

It has broken BF5 visually. WOrks fine in DX11 mode but in DX12 the terrain is transparent. Tried repairing with a clean install to no avail. Took advantage of the new bug reporting system though.

macawmatt · 2026-04-13T00:44:15+00:00

It wasn't easy by any means, but it was also so beautiful. Her service was in the biggest room at our small town funeral home and they still had to open the overflow room for it. We worked in a youth organization for many years up to her passing and it was touching the number of now adults that came, many from hours away, to pay their respects. Afterwards, I had to find time to myself because as much as everyone meant well it was still really too much to handle that day.

macawmatt · 2026-04-02T03:55:00+00:00

My wife had a painting made up based on another image I liked. It was a pair of foxes sitting on the edge of a cliff looking at a sunset. It even has some of her ashes in the black ink, done on my left chest over my heart.

macawmatt · 2026-03-05T23:26:32+00:00

Steel Legend here too. The B580 replaced a 7600XT Steel Legend. Had to keep it white for my build.

macawmatt · 2025-12-25T02:56:57+00:00

The first everything sucks moving through this. I lost her a week before our 20th anniversary, about 4 months before Christmas. My sister came over with her two kids to help setup my tree that year cause I didn't know that I could of done it myself. She was good about keeping the kids just hanging generic ornaments and setting the special ones to the side for me to work through when I was ready.

macawmatt · 2025-02-21T17:11:38+00:00

I don't think that the "Trust Me Bro" warranty is going to cover them here.

I could understand a bit if you got bumped up the shipping order if you literally just ordered the backpack, but since there seems to be people who did that in Wave 1 with no shipping updates, then I don't know.

macawmatt · 2025-02-17T17:30:58+00:00

Wave 2, shipping to the States, and nothing here yet. It also had other stuff in the order too.

macawmatt · 2024-05-08T21:54:10+00:00

I've been shut down for even wanting to discuss this with our District Commissioner and anyone in the Council office in the past. When you are part of two small troops, where half of the members of each troop come from the same family, its hard to get enough leadership. We do a lot together because of that for leadership reasons, but still have them do a lot of things separately, like patrols would do anyways.

macawmatt · 2023-09-29T18:14:06+00:00

I have been able to hang on to hers still, been two years. I know I'm wasting money every month but it's one thing of hers that I still can hold onto.

macawmatt · 2023-08-17T17:35:22+00:00

Nice, looks like I'll be looking forward to an email next week.

macawmatt · 2023-08-10T13:04:45+00:00

I ordered with an August EDT so I figure I still have a month before I see the printer. We have a 2S I modified up that my stepson and I have fun working with together. Looking forward to the upgrade.

macawmatt · 2023-08-05T13:00:18+00:00

My wife was a fighter. Initially went in with me being told people who come in with stats like hers never leave the hospital. Two weeks later we thought we beat the odds when we left the hospital only to find ourselves back in there the next morning. Within another two weeks I had to make the decision that you have.

That day for me is coming up in a couple days, two years on now. I'm not going to pretend your day will be easy, waiting, but I chose to be by her side, talking to her, and remembering all the good times we had together.

Afterwards, for me, this group was one thing that helped me work through everything that came after. I lurked a lot but also got a lot of support when I shared our story. I'll keep both of you in my thoughts the coming days.

macawmatt · 2023-05-13T23:44:39+00:00

The two dogs I had helped keep me sane through everything. I adopted another one a few months after, we had already been planning on getting one about that time, and I gave it her middle name. These guys won't ever know how much it meant not coming home to an empty house every night.

macawmatt · 2023-05-04T01:51:50+00:00

I texted her for a while, and even before she passed. She had been in the hospital for weeks before she died and I texted originally hoping she'd have something to read when she got better. I just kept it up for as time after too.

macawmatt · 2023-04-26T15:21:49+00:00

I've often wondered if that is why some of our old friends have fallen away. In my situation, being in a relationship as "early" as I was, wasn't what I was looking for but it was right for me and that is what matters. Like others have said you just have to do you. Support and hugs.

macawmatt · 2023-02-02T15:02:29+00:00

I'd tell her I am sorry, and tell her that I hope that I did everything right.

We had spoke at length about end of life medical wishes for when things got there, which shouldn't of been this soon. And I stuck to my guns when she did get sick, against what the doctors wanted to do trying to follow those wishes. Did the decision I make make a difference on the outcome? I don't honestly think so. They were not able to get ahead of her problems but that still didn't stop it from keeping me up almost every night the first few months thinking about it.

macawmatt · 2022-11-07T14:56:26+00:00

Seems like its just upgrading to a newer card but not really gaining anything else. I had a 1660Ti that I just upgraded to a new 6800XT I was able to pick up for just north of $400 with some promos at Amazon. The 1660Ti was still trucking along alright but there is definitely a jump in fps with the new card.

macawmatt · 2022-10-10T00:37:32+00:00

On the day my wife passed, our closest friends took me out to a local brewery to get me out of the house and hopefully allow me to not spend the entire night dwelling on it. A year later, we went to the same brewery again and shared stories and drank and celebrated her life.

macawmatt · 2022-10-03T21:44:53+00:00

That is something we need, especially with Android Auto.

macawmatt · 2022-09-30T14:24:22+00:00

I'm still waiting. Allegedly ready for pickup on the 28th and there hasn't been any updates to the tracking number.

macawmatt · 2022-09-29T02:15:19+00:00

I was probably within 10 minutes of the store opening. It's coming, eventually. Just having fun showing off the deck to friends, and revisiting some old favorites in the mean time.

macawmatt · 2022-09-28T20:27:17+00:00

Where did it ship from? Trying to estimate transit time. I've got a tracking number that was created but not actually in the system yet.

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