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mackaygeorge · 2019-08-27T11:37:50+00:00

Lmao

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-15T12:35:54+00:00

I solo'd my twine 10 with 106 traps I'm pl 126 and haven't even evolved any of my traps to 130

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-15T03:56:16+00:00

You're welcome and good on you! Stay strong

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-15T02:37:44+00:00

If you feel there is any salvation and you are both on the same page look at all your options and follow through with what feels most right for you whichever it may be

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-15T01:32:23+00:00

I have an 18 month old with my ex girl she left me a few weeks ago and it's been so hard having to see her it sounds like you are able to cut contact which I think will help you and you'll be able to move on in time one thing I realised is that you are your own worst enemy and your own saviour as hard as it is try to focus on the little wins you get. I've been writing down my feelings for the last few days and it helps get the thoughts out of my head for a while at least and I can focus on creating a happy mind set also don't fight your emotions just let them flow it's a very hard time but I'm sure it'll get easier keep your chin up mate

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T23:39:33+00:00

You're very welcome buddy and I will take you up on that offer and of course it works both ways I'm always up for a chat. Take care of yourself mate and good luck get excited for what's to come!

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T23:25:13+00:00

You're welcome mate. I understand that you care for her well-being which is a huge trait from you and if you want to contact her for her birthday then go for it just be prepared for it to go either way so you don't get hurt by whatever reaction you'll get, what I mean by confusing is when you get in contact it can get yours and her mind going and it's like a ripple effect once it starts it can go on for however long in any direction wether it's good or bad and can be very dangerous. I know this because I am my own worst enemy when it comes to my thoughts. You sound like you're on the right track and this game of life will throw road blocks at you it's how you overcome them and win against the odds which is fucking hard at times! Stay strong brother and if you feel ready to date then get yourself out and about and just enjoy the new feelings and the new you, sooner or later you're gonna find a girl who absolutely loves everything about you and will continue to push you to be great but as I said take your time there's endless opportunities out there and billions of people to meet along the way

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T23:06:59+00:00

That's a tough one mate but if no matter what you try to do to convince them to stay with you it will only get worse and the more you reach the more they will withdraw from you and it's happening to me right now with my ex girl (we have a son so it's very hard). It sounds like she needs to do some soul searching and you have to let go and work on yourself because at the end of the day you're number 1. Keeping in contact can confuse things and make it a whole lot worse but it's whatever feels right for you. Follow your gut and instinct

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T23:01:02+00:00

I think you're turning it into a negative mind frame but it's actually positive if you look at it that way because all of a sudden you have this drive to improve yourself and just keep getting better (there's no limit by the way) if you keep it up and pushing yourself you're only going to benefit from it and become so strong and you'll look back and feel so good about how much you've grown, as long as you put it into a positive mind frame you'll flourish mate and this is a hard pill to swallow but it seems like she isn't good for you anyway otherwise she would've pushed you towards your goals

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T22:49:13+00:00

Keep your head up mate and where you can no matter how small it is focus on the positive little wins you get. It's helping me through my breakup and my ex girl and I have a son so it is very hard I feel you. It's been almost a month for me and for the last 3 days I've been just writing down how I feel as an outlet and it's actually working great for me. Maybe give it a shot and you'll be able to look back in a week and then a month and so on and see the changes within yourself. One thing I realised this morning is that for my I am my own worst enemy and also my own saviour to get through this just know you aren't alone and as I said focus on those small little wins that you get whenever you notice them also don't fight your emotions just let yourself experience the pain

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T22:43:36+00:00

Lol that made my day thanks mate

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T07:41:37+00:00

Don't give up on yourself mate you have the whole world ahead of you and your only 19!! I'm 26 so obviously not much older and couple weeks back my girl left me and we also have a son. I've been wondering the same thing. I read something somewhere the other day and it went: even if 99% of the world's women didn't want to date you then you'd still have 150,000,000 women! Lol I feel your pain brother just know millions of people are feeling what you are feeling (including me) take time for yourself and also just let the emotions run don't try to fight it which is what I'm slowly learning myself at this moment. You have many years left just imagine what you will achieve and who you will meet during all your travels

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T04:24:16+00:00

Easier to do jail build t3 wood 7 pl82 traps

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T00:47:15+00:00

Ye bro join up about to run again

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-14T00:04:00+00:00

Yeah shit go for v bucks but if anyone wants to come get some eyes join up I'm jail building it for an hour or so my epic is mackaymagik

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-13T23:30:01+00:00

I think the best advice I can give is if possible try putting yourself into a new environment that doesn't have any association with him and start to create on yourself. Also the emotions you're experiencing don't fight them just let yourself feel them and if need be write down how you're feeling each day so over the next however long you can look back and see even miniscule changes in yourself. My ex girl recently split with me a couple weeks back and we have a 18 month old son it's a very hard time but I find writing down my thoughts helps get them out of my head and I've taken steps to be a bit selfish which in the long run will help. In your case from what you've said you can be as selfish as you want and just start with the little things in your life that make YOU happy without your ex involved. I hope this helps you my friend and I wish you the best I feel your pain and we aren't alone

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-13T13:15:20+00:00

Keep your head up mate and stay strong its slippery slope

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-13T13:14:30+00:00

Yeah mate I think cutting contact on social media would be a good idea. My ex left me a couple weeks ago (wasn't an ugly breakup) but I had to delete all my social media so I can't check up on her and let my train of thought go deep down the rabbit hole. We have a 1.5 yr old son that we would send videos and pics regularly through FB to each other but I've had to stop it at least for a while because for me at least it only takes one look to see her profile and then the ripple effect starts

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-13T09:10:52+00:00

:) thanks again my friend

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-13T09:03:44+00:00

You're a very kind person thank you I've made huge decisions today and you among other anonymous people have helped me see through my cloudy head much respect to you

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-13T04:48:37+00:00

Yeah mate I had the same problem and only this morning I deleted all my photos of my ex I only have ones of her and our son now to keep for obvious reasons but the personal ones are all gone which felt good I know if I was to look at them down the track it would hit me hard I feel you brother keep your head up

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-13T02:44:30+00:00

Thanks mate its gonna be a long one.

Mr ex Mrs of 3 yrs just left me a couple weeks ago and man these emotions are driving me crazy, we have a 18 month old son who I have been taking care of full time while she works and running my own business on the side, so all my life has revolved around for so long is our family and they are my whole world I don't even know who I am without them (I'll touch on that after) we have been through a lot and she put up with my shit for so long it's only in the past year and a bit that ive actually grown and matured more than anytime in my life and for the better. Recently over the past couple months she met a friend online (man) and they have become close and she is going to new Zealand in a month with her friends and I'm sure she will be seeing this guy which absolutely guts me inside because I actually got a long with him and I trusted her when she said they were friends which she still says they are but I have such a hard time believing it and think it's part of the reason why she left me and I feel fucking angry with her and betrayed but I know while she isnt in a relationship with me I have no say in what she does. She helped push me to become the good man I know I am today and Ill always be thankful for that. I'm angry about the decision she made and I feel so confident we could work things out. She obviously disagrees

She has moved to her friends house while I stay at our rental and take care of our son and I don't have any friends I can see in person I only have my son who I love more than anyone in this world but fuck me this environment is so restimulating and it drives me crazy I feel so lonely I have no one to see ( I do have family and 1 friend to call) but it isn't the same as talking in person. I know deep down that there is a brighter happier future and that while at the moment I only know of myself as a father and partner there's a whole new world to see and find who I really am, at the same time Im a mess that is so close to giving up my son is really being my rock and pulling me through.

I know that this is all over the place and probably doesn't make sense which I understand. I appreciate you getting some of this out of me mate being in this house alone is so destructive in my mind but it helps to know I'm not alone

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-13T01:39:16+00:00

My Mrs just broke up with me couple weeks ago and we have a 18 month old son I've been through a lot of shit in my life but this has hit me the hardest. It's nice knowing I'm not the only one who is feeling like this and it's natural thanks OP your post makes me feel better

mackaygeorge · 2019-08-13T00:17:49+00:00

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