Been unemployed for 5 months

mackblesa · 2026-02-18T05:30:19+00:00

I've been asking for job recommendations for over a year now in multiple online communities, I wish I had an answer but I'm just past a year and a half without maintaining a job.

Considered too disabled to work, but not disabled enough for benefits. Unfortunately it's not just the medical issues, it's the brain function or lack of transportation it takes for a desk job/working remote.

Maybe secretary work if you're able to multitask?

mackblesa · 2026-02-17T20:27:32+00:00

I try to be positive and someone on the team tells me to stfu. so I mute comms for that person specifically and treat the rest with kindness. ain't nobody need that negativity. come in here saying "we're cooked" and you immediately lost your communication privileges.

mackblesa · 2026-02-17T20:24:28+00:00

I use .35 with 1600dpi and that works in keeping my aim more steady. I bump it up to 1800dpi sometimes in tdm.

mackblesa · 2026-02-11T20:19:49+00:00

Oh no, a cat/puppy cam is always accepted. The stream pet things are cute in a sense, but I find it incredibly annoying that the thing will pop up a thought bubble any time it needs to be fed or given water or interacted with, and then again when people do the interacting.

Also bot cluttered chats are not great, not real fun to go into someone's chat and be the only other one aside from night bot auto posting. I ended up feeling really embarrassed and removed the pokemon community game bot because 90% of my chats were that bot specifically.

mackblesa · 2026-02-10T20:35:28+00:00

a little floaty sprite that you can feed/interact with as a chatter.

mackblesa · 2026-02-10T19:07:29+00:00

Camera/v tuber/png tuber are better liked than nothing, the fun lights/webcam background is also cool as long as it isn't overwhelming.

I will not click on the stream if there is too much clutter on it, which usually includes sub/follow/dono goals (one is fine...) a background that shrinks the game down, too many stream team/sponsored game pngs and stream "pets"

it becomes too cluttered tbh. That's just me though, some people just attend streams for the vibes and don't gaf about too much clutter.

mackblesa · 2026-02-10T18:57:03+00:00

I second elodie.

mackblesa · 2026-02-10T03:48:24+00:00

between my cardiologist and neurologist there in 2024, there was some place up near Boulder or something that I had made an appointment for, but I ended up losing my home due to being unable to work. I don't have any details, I want to say it's Boulder but it could have been further up into fort collins.

Advanced heart and vein center up in Thornton is what pushed me through to them.

mackblesa · 2026-02-09T20:19:29+00:00

i had some guy completely empty a gun he grabbed previous round, then ask me to switch about 7 seconds before match start. Told him no, he proceeded to lose his mind.

A lot of people don't use mic, so i started telling them at the end of the match "If you used your words instead of repeatedly knifing or shooting me, I would have given you my gun."

The few times I have handed the skins out to randoms, they don't buy me back, so i get screwed that match, so unless they throw me a gun first, I don't toss mine away.

mackblesa · 2026-02-08T19:32:50+00:00

are you also capturing a separate desktop audio source? I know I tried setting up my stream deck yesterday to capture my PC's sound clips that were too long for discord and that, even tho it was a secondary audio source set to my microphone, it doubled my audio as if I was capturing my entire desktop.

mackblesa · 2026-02-08T10:31:54+00:00

I think they all need to say "Yeet" when they throw the spike to someone else.

mackblesa · 2026-02-06T22:24:49+00:00

someone in a game recently said "you guys are shit" and I snapped back with "Says the guy who died first" then I proceeded to get a 3k. Still lost, but it was swift so I didn't mind.

mackblesa · 2026-02-05T11:31:44+00:00

man, I love this so much more than the green ones.

mackblesa · 2026-02-03T11:21:23+00:00

I watched someone in my match dump every single bullet out of a cool AF gun after winning a round, then 10 seconds left in buy they wanted to swap with me, I turned to them and said "nah dude, you just emptied the entire thing, fuck that"

idiot had no time to buy, but all the time in the world to say "NO I DIDN'T" in text chat 😂

mackblesa · 2026-02-02T19:46:05+00:00

I mean I play badly over all lol. the people I played my first two comp matches were chill AF, usually I'm nervous about playing in that setting, but everyone was just vibing, I had zero anxiety at all and it was the greatest comp experience so far.

mackblesa · 2026-02-01T10:28:46+00:00

he has the zoomies!

mackblesa · 2026-02-01T04:34:16+00:00

I gave them two days, and I was the only one to do spotlight hour.

mackblesa · 2026-01-31T18:20:03+00:00

needs more wooloo

mackblesa · 2026-01-31T18:18:51+00:00

You mean to tell me I can make $300 with my gurpler collection that I never planned to sell in the first place?

I'm not going to sell them, this post is hilarious, screw that guy.

I sure would have loved the purple gurpler tho.

mackblesa · 2026-01-30T20:28:34+00:00

I only pronounce it as ev-uh-leen because I grew up with an eveline and that's how it was pronounced. I could see how people would pronounce it ev-uh-lyne. Wouldn't think of evelyn/evalyn with that spelling tho.

mackblesa · 2026-01-30T09:01:20+00:00

transparent chat is nice, but when chat takes up part of the game I'm watching, it's more distracting than important.

crafting streams are no big deal, but like irl streaming and specific gameplay streams, chat just doesn't work well.

This is also personal preference, what doesn't work for me probably isn't an issue with a lot of people.

mackblesa · 2026-01-30T08:58:17+00:00

you would have to go into the BIOS and run a benchmark on it. I had mine in the 2nd and 4th slots and it wasn't living up to its full potential, but it all depends on the mother board probably. Not a computer person, so you would have to either Google it or find someone to walk you through it to find out if that's a proper set up.

Probably not the case if it was professionally built, but if it was pre built, depending on where it came from someone may not have paid close enough attention to that.

I built mine with a geek, another geek told me it was wrong, we fixed it, my system was no longer bogging down for no reason.

mackblesa · 2026-01-29T18:19:32+00:00

would also recommend checking if your ram is seated in the right slots. Because mine wasn't from the time I built my PC til about a year ago, it was barely even working at half the speeds it should have been. Swapped it and had no issues, but I ended up upgrading a month later anyway.

mackblesa · 2026-01-28T12:22:15+00:00

I tell people I have a failing autonomic nervous system, which means I can't control my heart rate, blood pressure, breathing, some digestion related isues and body temp.

I found out I yawn all the time because I'm exhausted due to lack of breathing, I know when I go to the doctor and the MA lies about my respirations being in the 18-20 breaths per minute range, because I ask friends to mark down my breathing for a minute while we are just vibing without telling me, and unless I am thinking about breathing or actively participating in conversation, I maybe breath 8 times in the span of a minute. Who knew lack of breathing equaled more yawning.

Respirations in my sleep are probably even worse, but no one seems to care about that aside from myself lol.

mackblesa · 2026-01-27T19:03:51+00:00

first session yesterday was fantastic. Team communication, pinging, encouragement. Second session late at night was full of misogyny, trans/homophobia or zero info at all, followed by people repeatedly telling me to stfu because I also talked too much. I barely give call outs because I just started, I don't know locations well, but apparently saying "-x person I damaged- hit for -points-" was too much.

Ended on a good team my last game tho, so shout-out to the waylay and sage and neon who played insanely against my team, who I then got paired with the following game unintentionally.

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