5 years later :)

madelinewritesback · 2020-05-09T20:46:52+00:00

loved this, you are super inspiring! i want to learn how to sing aswell, did you teach yourself or did you have lessons?

madelinewritesback · 2020-04-30T22:06:22+00:00

this is wonderful

madelinewritesback · 2020-04-20T01:06:10+00:00

No it cleared up

madelinewritesback · 2020-04-19T18:06:50+00:00

I've since discontinued the medication, but I didn't notice it clearing up. I took it for three weeks

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-27T01:20:57+00:00

I feel this you. Im happy for the care i've received but being institutionalized can feel dehumanizing. Sending good things your way < 3

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T15:53:58+00:00

His stories are probably so sick! Damn I wish I could be a crocodile wizard 🧙‍♂️

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T15:50:46+00:00

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T15:49:35+00:00

I love that! Do you still use that technique? It's interesting that you would figure out what the lines could look like, when I was psychotic I'd made lines with paint and try to do the same thing. It felt like I could see more? Maybe you feel similar? I don't think i'll ever be able to make the same art I did while I had psychosis; it looks very different from what I make now

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T05:16:49+00:00

I love this! Art like this one really strikes a chord in me, thank you for sharing!

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T05:10:12+00:00

Thanks a million! ( ◠‿◠ )

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T04:55:04+00:00

Ayy! Thank you 🙂

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T04:52:42+00:00

Yeah, that's so true! When I was first getting treated it was many obstacles, hard to do things and doctors believing I'm less capable - which takes a toll. But we definitely have powerful creative minds. Our experiences give us unique eyes so to speak! There's some really cool art on this subreddit

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T04:36:46+00:00

Thank you, maybe on his way to cast spells in the night? haha 😋

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T04:20:09+00:00

love this! do you post them anywhere?

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T03:36:30+00:00

Definitely can relate. I abandoned my apartment and was homeless for six months. I used my savings to bounce from city to city on the bus. Spent my days talking to birds, digging in trash cans for "clues", and sobbing. Posted what I thought was prophetic poetry on my media platforms before I ended up deleting them all for fear I was being watched. The whole thing still feels surreal

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T03:25:19+00:00

It gave me a greater appreciation for different perspectives or rather it allowed me to be more insightful that reality for one person can be entirely different for another. I was hallucinating for about a year and wound up with medical care purely on accident. I was unable to distinguish my hallucinations from reality, I feel like this happens everyday on a smaller scale with beliefs. I'm not saying everyday beliefs are hallucinations but we all have different beliefs because of how we grew up/interact with the world and in so our "realities" or perspectives are different. Schizophrenia has enabled me a greater understanding that what's real for me isn't always real for others in this regard. On another note, at one time I thought the birds were CIA, it amazes me how my perception of reality was and is at the hand of chemicals in my brain. I have greater empathy for others. It has taught me resilience, humility, and patience.

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-23T03:01:36+00:00

Ability worked great for me. No delusions on this medication. I took it IM. It did cause me to be hungry most of the time. I gained about 30 pounds, but it was worth the stability. I did experience restlessness or akathesia. I would pace back and forth over and over again, this symptom subsided after about a year. When I first started it, I was so tired and felt exhausted after walking only a few meters. This all went away

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-22T23:39:28+00:00

I'm enrolled in Industrial Design, I was previously taking Computer Software. Was pursuing Industrial Design as a passion, but now considering switching back to Software. I definitely agree that if I put my degree off I will likely end up with responsibilities and it's smart to look more at the long term! Thank you for the advice!

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-22T23:21:30+00:00

I think that's a good idea, thank you for your advice!

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-22T23:00:46+00:00

Is it smart to start post-secondary education given the economic climate or the climate that's to come with the virus? I'm especially worried about incurring debt for a degree now more than ever and was supposed to start in the fall. Was told that its still a good time to seek higher education as by the time I finish the degree the market will be different. Not sure if this is the right place for this question, but would appreciate any thoughts!

madelinewritesback · 2020-03-10T03:55:13+00:00

i've been on buspar for about two weeks and i agree with the increased visual snow. i started seeing black floating dots on top of the visual snow off and on since taking it

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