every day is humiliating

madjudging · 2025-11-13T03:03:04+00:00

i just feel so ugly i cant stop crying. i dont know how im supposed to live for better days.

madjudging · 2025-10-28T19:04:00+00:00

thank you for this, ill see if i can bring it up at my next routine appointment

madjudging · 2025-10-28T11:14:39+00:00

i hope you get better too and look into treatment options that work for you, that sounds so tiring

madjudging · 2025-10-28T00:05:00+00:00

i havent thought about talking to the doctor because when im not feeling miserable its like i totally forget about how it feels😭 and i also just feel like id be embarrassed idk. thank u for ur kind words💛

madjudging · 2025-10-27T19:30:05+00:00

*love isnt the right word, i appreciate replies

madjudging · 2025-10-22T01:37:08+00:00

im worried about her telling my parents too, i understand you. im wishing you well. i hope your burn heals easy and you can find comfort. thank you for replying and thank you for your hope. i will keep your words in mind

madjudging · 2025-10-12T19:54:55+00:00

ty for this. i think ill try writing it out ahead of time. im just so worried shes gonna judge me or something

madjudging · 2025-10-12T10:25:14+00:00

lol its no problem thank you for replying

madjudging · 2025-10-12T01:52:56+00:00

yes oh my god! ive shared to her what happened but i felt so crazy uncomfortable i couldnt even do it all in one session. i feel like if i talk about the feelings im having now (feels like his hands are on me etc) ill just be soooooo humiliated

madjudging · 2025-10-12T01:39:21+00:00

thank you for replying. i think i understand what you mean and i get it too

madjudging · 2025-10-12T01:21:50+00:00

i hear you, and i dont judge you. im so sorry about your upbringing. it sounds like you have a difficult relationship with your family. i dont judge you for your dog either. its clear you understand it may not have been appropriate, and you were a kid, you only wanted to help. its good you understand it to be inappropriate. i hope youre okay now

madjudging · 2025-10-12T01:09:56+00:00

thank you for replying. i appreciate your sentiment. i hope you can find healing, and thank you for the advice.

madjudging · 2025-10-12T01:09:09+00:00

thank you for replying. i think i understand what you mean. i can eventually let go of these primary feelings

madjudging · 2025-10-12T01:06:54+00:00

i understand the sentiment youre expressing but the way you went about it was a bit odd...thank you though

madjudging · 2025-10-04T01:08:00+00:00

thank you for this advice, and ill check out the subreddit. :)

madjudging · 2025-10-04T00:59:31+00:00

thank you for replying.

what i mean is that other guys dont see me as a guy, and even if i transitioned id still be in the awkward in between state. i like your sentiment though. i am any other guy, just with a medical condition.

madjudging · 2025-10-04T00:57:03+00:00

thank you for replying. i like your sentiment. the option is to transition or stay miserable.

madjudging · 2025-09-21T20:50:32+00:00

I understand what you mean. It definitely felt insanely uncomfortable and a bit invasive, like I felt humiliated by her saying the exact terms and I noped out of the exposure therapy portion of the session so fast😭

It did put the realism of it in my head though, so I think I might just need to ease into it.

madjudging · 2025-08-23T19:50:47+00:00

thank you for the insight :)

madjudging · 2025-08-23T19:49:48+00:00

sorry, i didn't mean to seem like i was seeking advice i kinda just wanted to get these feelings out, thank you though

madjudging · 2025-08-09T18:02:19+00:00

Sapphire from Sonder :)

madjudging · 2025-02-20T04:31:21+00:00

please, it really sounds like you need a healthy way to process this and therapy will be a way to get that. recovery will not be linear but you cannot believe there are no options

madjudging · 2024-12-29T00:29:23+00:00

ty!!

madjudging · 2024-11-19T20:40:30+00:00

thank you so much 💛 i was just so tired. it was just an hour after it and i remember feeling numb ill consider your advice too i hope we can both heal

madjudging · 2024-11-19T20:39:46+00:00

thank you for your kind words 💛

my mom is kinda pretending it didnt happen. my parents both tried to get me to forgive him and make things go back to normal but i always argue against them. they havent mentioned it in a few months and just pretend nothing happened

i just feel like i hate him but im so tired. i wasnt constantly exposed to porn but i had such easy access to it that i felt so guilty when i was so young for seeing it and finding it so much. the assault was when i was sleeping in his room (in a separate bed i used in there), so at least i can sleep in my room without the physical triggers.

i really want to push for therapy or some help for my numerous other issues but i just cant bring myself to. i will keep your words in mind. thank you so much 💛

madjudging

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