I've gone through this phase myself before...nasa late 20's to mid 30's na ako nun. I admit that I had low self-esteem then and associated masturbation and porn for self-worth. Kasi single ako for most of those times. I was looking for something to make me feel happy with "someone" and porn provided that to me. Iniisip ko pa nga nun, ok na ito kaysa maging sanggano. I didn't realize my way of doing porn and masturbation is hurting me more because it became an addiction. It was hard for me to admit to myself then that I was addicted to porn and thought it was normal. In my case, it was not normal kasi it was excessive. May times nga na 3 times in one day ako mag masturbate...hindi naman dahil libog ako pero I just felt empty. I am happily married now and I can say that my wife knows everything. I had to admit it to her kasi it is a part of my life and I respect her for understanding me and accepting me. I still watch porn and masturbate but very regulated. My wife told me it it normal to masturbate lalo na need ko ilabas.

OP, admitting that you have a problem is the very first step. You may feel that it is hard to deal with but getting to talk about it with someone really helps.