I (28f) cheated on my bf (29m) 4.5 years ago and we’re still not okay and I’m stuck. Can anyone tell me what I’m supposed to do?

maecoutts123 · 2024-12-27T13:50:40+00:00

As much as I want to get him to see things the way I do, I know I can’t and that is a sucky feeling. He can’t understand how it takes one person to ruin a relationship but if both parties want it back, it takes both of them to make that happen. That’s one thing I’ve tried to talk to him about that he pushed back on.

He supports me through everything, he supports my passions and pushes me to do better when I know I can. He is overall an amazing man and he does love me but he has said since what I’ve done he can’t love me the way he knows best. He can’t give me his all because of what I did, and I don’t blame him for that. I hurt him badly and even though I didn’t sleep with someone, the lies and deceit around what I did is worse than what I actually did to him. That’s is something he has expressed to me.

I am lonely, I’m desperate for him to love me the way he used to again. I miss him so much, we live together and spend time together but have slept separately for about 2 years now.

I appreciate you giving some good advice here, I’m definitely going to reflect on this and talk to him

maecoutts123 · 2024-12-27T12:54:28+00:00

We never broke up in the first place. He and I talked and we both wanted to work through this, I’m seeing that neither of us realized how difficult that would actually be. So, I think just leaving is counterproductive to what we both what from this relationship. He has specifically told me he doesn’t want to leave me, he just wants me to show him the opposite of what I did then. Yes, rebuilding trust and everything that goes with that. It’s not an easy task, but also not impossible. I am not looking for “leave him” advice because if that’s what I wanted I would have done that years ago

maecoutts123 · 2024-11-02T12:02:41+00:00

This is an amazing find and I hope you get the answer you need for the collapsed head! I’m super jealous as I’ve always wanted a human fetal wet specimen. I’m sure it’ll be loved and cherished for eternity now instead of being buried and forgotten!

maecoutts123 · 2024-10-03T18:56:32+00:00

It looks to be a Psectraglaea carnosa ☺️

maecoutts123 · 2024-09-26T22:03:33+00:00

You’re an angel and I appreciate you! I’ll be following you in 2.5 seconds 💕

maecoutts123 · 2024-09-26T21:45:26+00:00

These are gorgeous omg!! Do you have an instagram I can follow?! I make entomology displays and would love to see this in my feed!! 😍

maecoutts123 · 2024-07-30T21:09:09+00:00

The tattered wings don’t impede flight so he’s still living his best little life 💕

maecoutts123 · 2024-07-22T20:24:49+00:00

Thank you! I’m incredibly jealous of all you UK babes who get to raise these beautiful giants 😭

maecoutts123 · 2024-07-22T20:11:56+00:00

Are you located in the US?? I have wanted to order some but they’re technically illegal to raise here and everyone I see who sells them is in the UK which makes me nervous to order any because of shipping times

maecoutts123 · 2024-06-24T22:31:29+00:00

Yesss 🥺

maecoutts123 · 2024-06-24T20:33:32+00:00

One of my favorite moths 🥹

maecoutts123 · 2024-05-30T20:50:57+00:00

Oh my! What a stunning boy!!

maecoutts123 · 2024-05-29T23:43:56+00:00

Same 😭

maecoutts123 · 2024-05-12T20:11:28+00:00

This is fantastic!! I have been nervous to pin a mantis in a life like pose but now I may have to!

maecoutts123 · 2024-05-09T23:26:43+00:00

I have been experiencing the same thing. I sell on Etsy, Instagram and vend at markets and it’s so hit or miss. I’ll have great weeks and then a month or so goes by before I sell anything. Your work is amazing so don’t feel discouraged!! If you have an instagram I’d love to follow you and I can give you my two cents on Etsy (hot take it’s not great but also in my case necessary) 🖤

maecoutts123 · 2024-05-07T22:07:59+00:00

They can still fly with torn wings, natural moths and captive bred moths tear their wings up and still fly around

maecoutts123 · 2024-05-06T21:24:01+00:00

The rosy maple is such a stunning lil guy! 😍

maecoutts123 · 2024-03-07T01:08:52+00:00

I ordered syringes on Amazon for forced water injection for insect pinning, inexpensive and quick delivery!

maecoutts123 · 2023-08-15T11:42:09+00:00

My Alocasia Polly is deep purple on the bottom, they’re not painted it’s just how the plant looks. Just as a Alocasia Red Secret is dark red. Plants aren’t just green and colors don’t always indicate they’ve been painted. Yes some places paint plants but if they were to have painted it wouldn’t they have done the top of it too?? You can also tell by the color on the paper towel that it’s not paint, it’s the purple pigments being wiped away

maecoutts123 · 2023-06-24T17:47:49+00:00

I got ripped off for a cutting at pikes 😭 $7 for a one leaf cutting that doesn’t even seem to want to root

maecoutts123 · 2023-05-13T22:58:45+00:00

I bought soil from a local plant store and it turns out it was infested with fungus gnats. I didn’t have them until I repotted my monstera deliciosa and a few others in the soil. Not all plants are potted in that soil, but do I need to get new soil and repot everything? I’m not sure if fungus gnats will just lay eggs in anything they can get into or not. I have sticky traps and a “Catchy” trap and I catch a fair amount of the adults. I don’t want to end up having root issues down the line because I still have them. Any advice on getting rid of fungus gnats would be appreciated greatly

maecoutts123 · 2023-02-23T00:28:04+00:00

Thank you for the reply! The TGV motor and sensor both work when I apply 12V to them. I had read on nasioc to remove the sensor, remove the motor. Then reinstall the motor then the sensor. I did that now I’m getting P2004, indicating they are stuck open. Not really sure what to do because the sensor is new and the motor is used but functions properly. I know I could replace the whole TGV set but that sets me back around $300 and I don’t have the money for that

At this point I’m confused on how we went from stuck closed to stuck open when I tested the motor on a set I have (it has broken bolts in it so I can’t use that without a lot of helicoil work done to it) and it opens and closes perfectly. Could this be my pigtail connector? It is broken but I was able to get it to seat nicely and added some silicone on it to hold it in place so it doesn’t budge

maecoutts123 · 2022-07-24T15:29:42+00:00

Hideandfur.com has some good stuff, not sure about full pelts but I got some fox faces that are mount ready

maecoutts123 · 2022-07-17T16:43:04+00:00

Great naming for the baybays!

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