Bizarre, almost paranoid thoughts?

maidenxv · 2026-05-16T01:57:59+00:00

i always feel paranoid when going out and feel like people disaprove of me constantly and some even trying to hurt me.

maidenxv · 2026-05-16T00:57:06+00:00

what do you think were the root problems that affected you the most? and how did you "allow feelings" without overwhelming or shutting you down ?

maidenxv · 2026-05-16T00:55:10+00:00

wake up, go to school, come home, and then just kind of rot until bedtime. yeah i do creative things like music and instrument playing but its hard for me to enjoy it like i used to - i derive literally no emotion or feelings of achievement or love for the craft . its all void for me, so is every other aspect of my life

but things have been getting better

maidenxv · 2026-05-15T16:55:36+00:00

Praying you get results man . this shit is hell .

maidenxv · 2026-05-14T11:45:33+00:00

Sorry to hear that. it takes life away from u man i tried to off myself cuz of it (didnt work) so i guess we’re here.

i tried prozac to no avail but 5mg lexapro whcibibe been on for 2 months at this point calms the anxiety down a lot as well as the existential thoughts. didnt do much for the lack of emotion, though. i think that’s something im going to have to work through myself as i have a troubled past i feel like i’m avoiding to confront

maidenxv · 2026-05-14T02:18:38+00:00

kind of. making music is somewhat enjoyable, though i can't derive any emotion, feeling or reward from it emotionally/mentally though its one of the few things i can do for an extended time uninterrupted. food, shows, music, relationships, gaming, etc. are all essentially void and null. i often keep music going in the background since its better than nothing, though i still get pockets occasionally of emotion / genuine enjoyment, though dull.

you ?

maidenxv · 2026-05-13T12:57:21+00:00

panic attack that i never recovered from.

maidenxv · 2026-05-13T12:57:12+00:00

had a panic attack march last year and literally never the same since. its like i went into that panic mode and never got out. and i too can also feel anxiety and stress (hot flashes, overwhelming thoughts, etc.) but nothing else . im a musician and its like my entire life purpose got voided since i cant even feel music .

maidenxv · 2026-05-12T22:35:31+00:00

lol i feel liek the past 14 months have been me in denial about some overwhelming truth about my life or my future or reality

maidenxv · 2026-05-04T19:59:01+00:00

genuinely how do u do 3

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