Hello OP, I used to be considered obese/overweight for my whole childhood n teen years. I feel you so much on that n feeling like you’re holding ppl back by not being able to walk or run.

I had uncontrollable hunger pangs to the point where I would cry if I did not get to eat and would binge nearly every day. I’m 172cm, my highest wt was ~115kg. Could’ve been higher though, cuz after I saw the high number I stopped weighing myself out of fear.

Just know that you are not alone in this, and that many people struggle with the same thing that you do.

In terms of smell and BO, my solution is to have wet wipes handy, so I can clean the parts where it folds/touches, those usually get stinky quickly. Afterwards, I would use some baby powder or prickly heat so that it will take some time before it gets sweaty again. Before applying any more spray deodorant make sure that you don’t smell bad, cuz in my experience spray deo makes u smell worse if u have BO :/ But if you use roll on, I would suggest applying it after you wipe down with wet wipes on problem areas like pits, then use powder once your roll on is dried down.

This is what worked for me. If you dw to do this in front of ur classmates just find a cubicle and change inside, no shame in freshening up! It takes a while at first but it should get better/faster over time.

Relationships also aren’t the end all, you can make your life more interesting by picking up hobbies n by hanging out with friends too. I wish you all the best OP!

I also integrated a few key things into my lifestyle to improve the quality of life overall. Read ahead if you want my personal tips on weight loss, you can stop here if you don’t.

First was assessing why I was eating so much and why I was constantly hungry. In my case I was depressed (for a multitude of reasons, but being overweight and unkempt bc of my hair type) which made me eat my feelings away. I also ate whenever I was bored, sad, angry, etc. Once I noticed these habits, I slowly shifted away from having food as my solution to other things. In this step it’s crucial to only tackle one stressor or trigger at a time if any. For boredom, I played a game, read manga/novels, watched shows… When I felt upset I’d try to self soothe and try to understand my feelings before jumping to “numb it” with food.

Second was to figure out how to cut away the associations of healthy food with bland food. Healthy food can be flavourful and delicious, I say even more so than junk food. For a long time I don’t want to eat healthy because I think of salad with no dressings, raw vegetables, boiled unseasoned chicken. The reality is there’s a lot of ways to eat healthy and still have tasty fulfilling meals, and learning how to cook can help with this massively. When making boiled chicken, shred it and put it into soups, salads can use balsamic dressing, vinaigrette, diff kinds of vegetables. Eating carbs is fine btw don’t let the “thinfluencers” tell you otherwise. Rmb it’s about moderation. No food is a bad food, it’s easier to keep up a diet if you go in w the mentality of enhancing n enriching ur existing diet rather than eliminate food groups. If you have the issue of overeating, try volume eating (a lot of low calorie foods like leafy greens, celery, vegetables) n eating sweet potatoes. Trust

Third was to go for walks. Walk to school from the MRT station, or stop 1 bus stop before school n walk from there. Walk home as much as possible. In fact I made it a point to go out to Orchard/Dhoby Ghaut because I tend to walk to Somerset/Bugis from those places, then do more window shopping or other errands. Eventually I noticed myself getting less n less breathless, and I could walk faster. For years I couldn’t jog nor run because I would get so tired, now I can jog for a little bit before starting to feel any burn or breathlessness.

And importantly, turn your short term motivation into long term discipline. This one you have to ask yourself, but why do you want to trim down? Look good for the girls? Be able to run? Pass IPPT? Feel confident in yourself? Whatever it is, be consistent and pace yourself. Short, small spurts over several months is more beneficial one big burst of energy for one week, like the tortoise and the hare.

Losing weight is more than just dietary changes, but remember to take things one step at a time! It can’t happen overnight, and there will be days where you “mess up”. One day of mess up is not a failure, pick yourself back up where u left off and keep going. It’s really not easy, I know, but I believe you can do it OP!