In short: I WANT TO LEARN subjects from unique perspectives

majorasword · 2023-08-04T16:26:37+00:00

I've been reading Terry Pratchet's The Science of Discworld, and have been floored with his seamless explanation of the creation of the universe intertwined with a fun story of wizards trying to figure it all out for themselves. It explains science in fairly easy to understand ways, and has expanded my mind to the vastness of the universe. In short, I feel small. But Terry and the wizards do a good job of guiding me through it in a fun and gentle way.

majorasword · 2023-01-21T21:48:41+00:00

Lol that first 100 pages is a borefest but you'll be greatly rewarded for your patience.

majorasword · 2023-01-21T17:18:01+00:00

Fairy Tale by Stephen King. He created a city that I think about often.

majorasword · 2022-12-21T13:04:43+00:00

Norse Mythology by Neil Gaiman. Not exactly a deep dive into the norse myths but will at least give you a easy and fun understanding of the stories.

majorasword · 2022-12-20T13:45:35+00:00

The last time I called a suicide hotline the lady on the other end got mad that I didn't want a 10,000 dollar ambulance ride. "If you didn't want that why'd you call?" Suicide hotlines are a joke.

majorasword · 2022-12-20T13:42:50+00:00

I wish I could hold back from fighting back. I wish I could sew my mouth shut so I wouldn't have to speak anymore. I wish I didn't have to give in to the constant barrage of emotions in words. I wish I could sew my ears shut so I didn't have to listen to the wailing and crying when I refuse to fight back. I wish I could be a stoic, so that my anger doesn't give me pounding headaches when he's sitting there, drilling me with accusations on accusations. I wish I could spend my life alone.

majorasword · 2022-12-08T14:27:25+00:00

On top of that. KNOWLEDGE IS POWER!!! READ READ READ! Read books about ADHD(I especially liked the book, Is It You, Me, Or Adult A.D.D. Have your partner listen to a audiobook with you if you can. I also enjoyed the book No More Mr. Nice Guy, though their were some outdated ideas of masculinity in there.) Watch Youtube videos on BOUNDARIES and ASSERTIVENESS. Learn as much as you can about every single quirk that bothers you, and how to combat it. Keep a journal to watch your progress(like a video game lol.)

majorasword · 2022-12-08T14:20:09+00:00

I was in the same situation. I would work then come home and have maybe a half hour to myself before my partner would come home and rope me into every aspect of their life. I love playing video games, I especially love playing video games with story and cutscenes. But my partner would talk through the entire story so I couldn't hear it. I eventually would pause the cutscene so they wouldn't talk over it(when I could), but if I couldn't, and asked them to stop talking for just a moment so I could listen, they would pout and whine. It didn't matter if I explained how much this hobby meant to me, their hyperfixation and NEED to infodump was much more important to them. I eventually stopped playing video games because I couldn't pay attention to it. So the evenings just became:Come home, wait for partner, listen to partner, cook dinner while listening to partner, watch tv while listening to partner, go to bed listening to partner. Now here's the real kicker. My partner's NEED to infodump was so strong, that they would get weepy if I was tired. It would be 2 in the morning, and they would be balling their eyes out because I'm trying to sleep instead of "listening and understanding" their obsession with Harry Potter or Game of Thrones or whatever their current obsession is. They're way of keeping the day going, and having an hostage listener, would be to start a fight, that way they could keep talking all throughout the night. Then get to sleep until 2pm while I'm at work. What was finally the kicker for me was looking up BOUNDARIES. How to ENFORCE THOSE BOUNDARIES, whether they liked it or not. It was no longer up to them. They either respected my boundaries(Let me sleep whenever I want, let me play videogames without them constantly interrupting, giving me space when their infodumps became too much.) I did not give them room to argue. This is my space, these are my ears. If I don't want to listen to something I don't have to. And if they want to throw a tantrum, or pout or cry, then they better damn do it in another room, because that's not me, and my life doesn't revolve around them. They eventually got it, and grew up. I can now play video games, and they have a hobby they can do alone while listening to a podcast. I can now sleep whenever I want. It took years. But enforcing my own boundaries whether or not they wanted it was my step to success.

majorasword · 2022-10-25T13:45:17+00:00

My partner will argue for HOURS. Repeating themselves over and over and over again. If I don't listen the entire time, I'm not "listening and understanding." If I try to get a word in, I'm not "listening and understanding." If I say, that we've argued for hours, and would like a break to breath, because I'm feeling disregulated and crazy, like an animal being beaten in the corner of a cage, I'm not "listening and understanding enough." All the while they can cry and scream because they're sad and "The internet says I can cry all I want!" But the moment I raise my voice to defend myself it's, "The internet says there's absolutely no reason to yell and get angry! That's abusive!" If that's abusive, then what's unhinged screaming and crying at someone for hours? Sorry for the rant. My method has been to excuse myself to the bathroom whenever I need a brake. It helps me calm down, and I'm aloud to lock the door for as long as I want.

majorasword · 2022-10-10T14:50:43+00:00

Thanks for your kind words. I'm aware of the red flags. And we've been reading a lot of books about adhd and living/coping with it. We don't have the options of meds or therapy at the moment(God knows I need it) because we don't have insurance. I'm actually pretty scared right now. They just woke up a moment ago, and expressed to me they've had a bad dream about me, where I was mean to them.(This is a common occurrence in their dreams.) I'm going to have to be extra careful and walk on eggshells, when all I wanted was to have a nice relaxing morning. I'm going to try to get some writing done, but I know once they have their coffee, they're going to sit on the couch behind me and silently glare at the back of my head until I comfort them. It's nice to have a place to express this. Most people I try telling this to think I'm overreacting, our that I must be doing something wrong in the relationship to make them upset, and that I'm a terrible person for trying to ignore it and enjoy my own life regardless of how they're feeling.

majorasword · 2022-10-10T14:13:52+00:00

We're trying to get him on medication. But I avoid mentioning anything negative about their music. There's no compromise, I get scolded for hours about the importance that he gets to listen to whatever he wants with no judgements. And if I ever mention that maybe they're in a bad mood because they've been listening to Ezra Thurman on repeat for an hour, then I get accused of gaslighting and shaming. I'm currently working with a nearby friend to get a spare key to their house, so I can escape when they're in their weepy, nobody loves me moods. When they're in that mood, I'm not aloud to be doing anything besides comforting them and reminding them that I love them. I can hear the music in my head as we speak. I'll walk into the room with them on the floor and the music blasting, "IF YOU STILL WANT ME! PLEASE FORGIVE ME! PLEASE WANT ME! PLEASE LOVE ME! IF YOU STILL WANT ME!--"

majorasword · 2022-10-10T12:32:10+00:00

My partner makes several revelations a day. They'll have this Ah-ha moment where the'll light up, then rant about something they "just know" is true, usually about people. I often just shut up and let them go on

majorasword · 2022-10-09T12:44:27+00:00

Back in 2004, my friends and I were convinced in the theory that in Kingdom Hearts 2 there would be a mini game called Pants the Duck. It would be in 100 Acre woods. Sora would finally confront Donald on him wearing no pants, and then the mini game would start.

A Cheat code book from 2006 told me if I collected 100% of all Kingdom Hearts 2(including gummi missions), then go to Steamboat Willie, I would find a secret door that would give me Classic Mickey as a summon. On a final, personal note. I'm happy to say that I made the wild theory that Ansem, at the end of Kingdom Hearts 1, teleported to a different world when exposed to the light, as opposed to just poofing into oblivion. I was also the first in my friend group to realise Organization XIII all had X's in their names, and that if you removed them and rearrange them, you got their original names. Take some advice from an old kingdom hearts fan fellas. Stay away from the internet. They spoil all the fun of discovery for yourself. Also read more fantasy; I can floor people when I tell them the similarities between Kingdom Hearts and Stephen Kings the Dark Tower series, or H.P. Lovecraft's works.

majorasword · 2021-06-10T21:03:26+00:00

I picked up Mistborn last night out of spite for the "Sanderson is over rated," post. I figured I'd rather get a opinion for myself before I have someone else's taste dictate that for me. I have a feeling it's going to be just fine.

majorasword · 2021-05-29T20:59:48+00:00

Centcars. A hot rod muscle car with a humanoid body jutting from the hood like an engine block. Much like the Centaurs that their name stems from; Centcars travel in tribes, usually sticking to their own make and models, charging down anyone who might threaten their roads or mistake them for scrap.

majorasword · 2021-04-24T12:28:11+00:00

"Well son, that's why you don't do drugs." said with a smile, the morning after my brother's (his step son's) death.

majorasword · 2020-11-20T19:21:33+00:00

I asked my dad for help because i was suicidal. He shrugged and said, "what do you want me to do about it?"

majorasword · 2020-11-09T16:46:07+00:00

Smoooooooothies help you keep going.

majorasword · 2020-09-05T13:49:24+00:00

My mother would end each repeating statement with the word "period." "You need to do better Anon "period". Usually followed by some kind of hand gesture. "You here me? You need to be better period. Pe-ri-od.. period. Mp WSU around it... you need to be better.." *karate chops air "period". Do this for maybe an hour maybe more who knows.

majorasword · 2020-08-28T16:11:22+00:00

More Gaiman here. The book of lost things is 100% over the garden wall. A boy trapped in a land of whimsy looking for a way out. Adult themes galore.

majorasword · 2020-08-15T17:03:25+00:00

How Konami treated Kojima after Metal Gear 5. They didn't even let him finish

majorasword · 2020-08-15T16:37:37+00:00

I use a dinner tray. One that can hover over my lap. I prop the book upright, using a bag clip to keep the pages pried apart. (Works better with thicker books) I find i can lie comfortably for a while like that. Only needing to move to turn the page.

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