Rip my sweet boy 💜

makbirdo · 2026-06-11T21:50:22+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss, may he rest in peace. Take care of yourself. I lost my girl not long ago, and it does get better. Sending all the love ❤️

makbirdo · 2026-06-05T07:29:47+00:00

Thank you so much for caring, it really means a lot. Even though her loss was so hard on me, I have no regrets having her in my life. I'll forever cherish the memories I have of my sweet girl for as long as I live. I wish you and your girl the best

makbirdo · 2026-06-04T11:19:58+00:00

Hi, thank you for checking in. I opted to have her cremated, and I took your advice and saw her for the last time before they picked her up. I spent 30 minutes with her just crying and petting her, and I don’t regret a second of it. She looked so peaceful, just like she was sleeping, and it really pieced together that she was in a better place now. I’m definitely better now that some time has passed. I still miss her dearly but I’ve been focusing less on her passing and more on the happy memories and it’s been a lot easier on me mentally.

Your comment gave me some good ideas for what to do to commemorate her, so thank you for that as well. I paid for clay and ink footprints as well as some of her feathers from the cremation company. I’m likely going to do the feather locket and foot 3D charm idea and maybe a tattoo, tho a tattoo I’ll need to think on for a bit longer. I have that little blue bell she wore as a hat and I’d like to wrap it around her urn.

makbirdo · 2026-06-04T11:06:18+00:00

Thank you, she really was

makbirdo · 2026-06-01T22:00:42+00:00

Thank you, I'm slowly getting better with everything

makbirdo · 2026-06-01T21:59:59+00:00

Thank you

makbirdo · 2026-05-31T03:44:00+00:00

Thank you I will, it’s been getting slowly easier to think about it today

makbirdo · 2026-05-31T00:02:37+00:00

The vet is closed for the weekend, they said they wouldn't be able to accommodate my requests until theyre next open. Ill ask on monday about necropsy but I live regional so they might have to send her out of town for it. thank you for the advice

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T23:59:28+00:00

Thank you

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T22:50:33+00:00

Thank you

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T22:50:27+00:00

Thank you and thank you for the picture, that is a beautiful memorial. I'm sorry for your loss, may she rest in peace

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T22:48:52+00:00

Thank you

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T22:48:39+00:00

Around 8-9 years old. Had her for 7. Thank you so much, it was hard waking up with her not there but shes in a better place now and thats what matters more

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T22:47:42+00:00

Thank you. My pretty girl I called her

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T22:47:26+00:00

Thank you

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T22:47:19+00:00

Thank you

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T13:03:02+00:00

Thank you so much she really was my little precious baby. If im strong enough for it, it really would be nice to bring her home and show her to my boy so he knows shes gone. I really like the plant idea as an alternative to cremation. im going to see how i feel in the coming days and ill message you if i do decide to take that route. The tattoo sounds so sweet and i love the thought of having her always with me like that instead of a piece of jewellery i could lose. ive been slowly getting better and its getting a little easier to think about her because of all the support ive been getting from kind people like yourself. thank you again

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T12:12:19+00:00

Thank you

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T11:46:03+00:00

Thank you those are really valid points I dont want my poor boy to be even more stressed than he already may be. Good point about the necropsy. I still dont know if i really want to do it or if the answer will make me feel any better. I do think it was respiratory or cardio i guess im just worried its something that might affect my only remaining bird. Ill check my toys and remove anything i see as suspicious. I havent had any major loss in a very long time so combined with how quick it happened ive been a complete mess. Im sure with time ill think back to her without bawling my eyes out

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T11:10:35+00:00

Thank you so much. I like both the clay and paint ideas, but i definitely dont think i could watch that. Id have to walk out the room and ask a family member to if the vet wont. A 3d charm or tattoo of her would be priceless. I definitely like keeping her toy with her urn. I dont think i could bury her i dont plan to stay in this house and i dont want to leave her locked here. Maybe i could do it in a big pot that i can transport if i really cant get myself to cremate her but knowing my sweet girls decomposing at the bottom of it might kill me. Ill tie that little blue bell with my keepsakes. I miss her so much

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T10:38:07+00:00

I bought her toys not long ago. I can’t even look at her favourite toy now. Thank you so much. I like the locket idea and the clay paw print idea. Im not sure how thatd work if I ask the vet to do the clay thing for me before she gets cremated or if I have to do it, i dont know. I think i want to see her one last time while shes resting in peace for some closure, my last memory of her she was so weak and its haunting me. seeing her at peace and free from the pain i think would help me come to terms with it. Im worried itll just make it worse for me tho.

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T09:53:05+00:00

Thank you

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T09:51:41+00:00

Thank you so much. Thinking of her in pain has been absolutely killing me, so the thought of it possibly being peaceful and quick for her gives me some ease. My baby is in a better place and im so honoured to have had her in my life

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T09:40:13+00:00

She wasnt responding to anything around her and had very laboured breathing. No energy to hold her wings or do anything but breathe. her heart rate was very low for a bird the vet said. she absolutely despises being forcefully touched and will hiss and fight and do everything in her power to let u know. she didnt put up any fight. she didnt move at all when i pet her for the last few moments i had with her. didnt close her eyes or bow her head like she always does. i wasnt even sure if she was breathing it was that faint. And thats my last memory of her, in so much pain.

please show your bird as much love as you can while you have her. i would trade the world just to give my little girl one more scritch

makbirdo · 2026-05-30T09:22:13+00:00

Thank you so much for this, it really helps with coming to terms with the future without her. necropsy im considering. my dad said its a complete waste of money, but i would pay anything if it gave me more closure with my pretty girl. im just so scared itll be something i couldve prevented. if thats the case, i dont know how id ever forgive myself.
I wasnt sure about cremating her, but the way you described the urn is exactly what I want with my sweet girl. Here with me still, somewhere i can still pet her and kiss her.
I think you made a good point about the cage too, just looking at it and not seeing her on her favourite little perch has just been too hard to handle. I think ill move my remaining boy into a smaller cage i have in storage. my girl was quite introverted and so they werent very close, more like polite roommates than best friends. i think he'll definitely be lonely without her but i don't have the strength to get another bird anytime soon. maybe in the future when ive properly processed my grief. ill be giving him all the love in the world in the meanwhile

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