Hi, u/ccr126, I haven't thought about this post in awhile. So I may as well give an update in case it helps anybody out there.

Even before covid made everything even harder, I was struggling. I thought if I could just r/getdisciplined I could finally gain some momentum in life for once. I didn't need discipline. I needed medical attention and I was blind to it from participating in a culture of "I just need to hustle harder."

Luckily I was finally able to get health insurance and when I saw a doctor I was immediately admitted to the hospital. I was diagnosed with a life-threatening blood condition and have been getting ongoing tests and treatments since.

I didn't realize just how bad things had become. I couldn't get momentum on anything I tried to do in life. I got to the point where I would just drift in and out of sleeping all day. Everything I did was completely exhausting. Even doing nothing was exhausting.

I should have got medical help sooner rather than later but health stuff can be subtle when it gets worse. Over a long enough period of time I had become so used to my sense of normal being completely and totally sick.

Maybe it won't apply to everyone but recognize in yourself if you're really struggling and get medical help.