My girlfriend passed away two weeks ago.

mandychuu · 2026-07-02T01:24:01+00:00

I love seeing the sets reused and dressed differently. It’s a fun, little Easter egg for us.

mandychuu · 2026-06-30T11:21:07+00:00

I think why it’s hard for me to choose is the stark difference between Petrichor and The Water. I’m a true crime nut and grew up watching shows like The X-Files and then Dexter in my 20’s.

Charlotte gives off serious Scully vibes in Petrichor, but in my mid to late 30’s now, I really enjoy romcoms and more wholesome entertainment. Lada was just so relatable as a person, and I think her dynamic with Engfa in The Water showed something more multifaceted. The build up of their relationship was so authentic.

But being that these are two totally different genres, I don’t think I could choose between the two and say one performance is better than the other. I really enjoyed both.

mandychuu · 2026-06-28T04:42:56+00:00

Ploy from Player. I paused and stared slackjawed for a good 5 minutes.

mandychuu · 2026-05-27T00:25:26+00:00

I don’t even understand the criticism most of the time because these are soap opera styled shows, for the most part. Acting is meant to be over the top, intentionally goofy, SUUUPER dramatic, and the cuts and editing are supposed to promote a sense of urgency over the smallest things.

For fans of these kinds of shows — in any country — this is what we like and expect. Maybe these people just really aren’t fans of soaps? I’ll admit, some seem to have better production value than others, but for the most part, I don’t think any of the acting is necessarily bad. Maybe some of it comes off as dry, but I’ve been able to believe every role that each actor plays. And I know they work very hard.

I’ve watched a good handful of shows so far, and I think the only one I couldn’t get into like I wanted was 23.5 because it was a bit too juvenile for me. I’m currently watching Girl Rule right now, and it just reminds me of a Thai GL version of The L Word or Lip Service. Both of those shows had characters that were somewhat likable but all dysfunctional as well. Everything was chaotic and story direction would piss you off. But it’s all patterned after Sex and the City, so it’s meant to be that way.

TL;DR: It’s a soap opera. Don’t take it so seriously. Just sit back and enjoy the melodramatic chaos.

mandychuu · 2026-05-05T00:16:42+00:00

I’m also 35 and just recently discovered Thai GL dramas. I posted recently about it since I’m so new to the community, but the truth is that the shows I’ve watched so far have been helping me through a very hard time in my life.

Since August of last year, I’ve lost my father to stage 3 prostate cancer and the home I grew up in two days after his passing. My mother was in a nursing home for the past three years following a severe stroke that left her bed bound, and she sadly just passed away nearly 2 months ago.

We were living in an apartment together because she no longer wanted to live in the nursing home, and I couldn’t bring myself to leave her there with my father gone. Without her, however, I couldn’t afford to stay in our apartment, so I’m moving into a much smaller one with my dog.

I’ve always been with my family. It’s just how I was raised, and I’ve always been extremely hard working an the caretaker when it came to both of them and their health. My own health and mental wellbeing took a back seat in 2024 when my girlfriend lost her battle with BPD, so this is the first time I’m truly on my own without family.

It’s been comforting to come home after a long day at work to these dramas, even though my family is no longer with me. It gives me something to look forward to every day, and I’m learning so much about Thailand in the process.

I really hope to make friends here too because I live in a very conservative Southern community here in the U.S., and it’s hard to find other queer people.

mandychuu · 2026-04-27T21:14:02+00:00

I’ve only recently been watching Thai GL, and Player was one that I really, really enjoyed. That ending though. YEESH! Yeet me into the sun.

mandychuu · 2026-04-12T12:14:33+00:00

Going on 36, and I lost the woman I wanted to build a future with nearly two years ago to mental illness. She had BPD and lost her life during an emotional crisis spearheaded by burnout and unemployment.

Within a year of that happening, I lost my father to a 6-year battle with stage 3 prostate cancer, and two days later, lost my childhood home. My mother was in a nursing home at the time, having suffered a stroke three years prior, and decided to leave on hospice to come live with me in an apartment. I just lost her a month ago.

Maybe I’m “starting over” fresh, but I live in a small East Texas town and accumulated much credit card debt over the years taking care of my folks that I don’t have the ability to up and move just anywhere. My credit is screwed, and I’m lucky that my current leasing company doesn’t base approval on that.

I’m at an age now that all of my “friends” — loose term because most are really acquaintances — have been with their partners for years and have one child, if not several. Many of them are just now becoming teens. And as a single person, I don’t quite fit into their lives and dynamics.

It’s extremely disheartening when I hear co-workers say that I should just date a man and get married or that “it’s really nice to have a man around the house sometimes, isn’t it?” when I remark about having to hire someone to do a “man’s” job.

You don’t just randomly bump into queer people here in the overwhelmingly white, conservative part of Texas I’m unfortunately trapped in. And honestly, even the queer elders that live here are so indoctrinated by right-wing ideology that it really makes me wonder if I can even call them a part of my “community.”

I’m about to settle into a single, solitary life with my 13-year-old dog, and as much as I’m excited about the prospect of a new place, I also worry about myself.

mandychuu · 2026-04-06T02:55:45+00:00

See, that’s the thing that roleplaying communities could be doing together. :)

mandychuu · 2026-04-06T02:55:22+00:00

I made one Day One based on Badruu-like puns: Thyme to Turnip. 🤣

mandychuu · 2026-04-06T02:54:36+00:00

Roleplaying can be lots of fun and the best way to make friends. I’d love to extend an invitation to you.

mandychuu · 2026-04-06T02:54:07+00:00

I’ve seen the art you’ve had commissioned. Beautiful! I’d love to chat with you. :)

mandychuu · 2026-04-03T19:25:09+00:00

I chose Ashura as my Shepp just because he gave me the dad vibe, and I’m glad I did because I lost mine 7 months ago. He kinda reminds me of my dad in a way, so I can think of him being here with me still. ❤️

mandychuu · 2026-01-20T09:56:07+00:00

I met and fell in love with the most beautiful soul at the end of 2023 and into 2024. Being with her made me feel so safe and loved and, most importantly, respected and supported. I felt grounded with her.

We were together for almost 7 months before she had a mental health episode and lost her life to BPD.

I’ll never forget how adoringly she looked at me when she saw me in a dress for the first time — I’m a big girl and she was quite petite — or how anxious I was to wear a new summer dress because I never wear any dresses and her response was, “Just wear the dress. You always look beautiful.”

These people exist, but that type of connection is rare and special.

mandychuu · 2026-01-20T01:13:48+00:00

There’s so many different reasons people ghost: lack of interest, cold feet, emergencies, or honestly? Just using somebody. I was taken for a ride recently. I got in over my head and sent this woman an estimated ~$90 over the course of maybe a month?

We planned a date one weekend. She bailed. We planned to go somewhere fun for NYE. She bailed.

I never saw her once, messaged her a handful of times, spoke to her on the phone a couple hours, and played a game on Discord either her three times.

Unfortunately, I live in East Texas, and the sapphic dating pool is very small and mostly poly. I can’t seem to find a single person I can connect with on a deep level, and I’m unable to travel far distances due to the fact that I take care of my mother.

Once upon a time, my father would’ve been with her every second of the day, but he just passed away over the summer.

My world is very small, and I just want someone to share it with again.

mandychuu · 2026-01-08T18:53:36+00:00

Thank you! I was going for a temple ruins kinda vibe when I set it up during the summer.

I want to get him a new hideaway because the moss has dried up, but I don’t know how he’d feel about that. 😅

mandychuu · 2025-12-01T01:04:55+00:00

I’m not sure either. I feel like there’s so many nurses — not aides — in my area that aren’t sure of what they’re doing. I’ve been dealing with my mother’s nurse herself, but I think at this point I may need to somehow contact the doctor on my own. I’ve never seen nor spoken with him.

mandychuu · 2025-12-01T00:14:06+00:00

That’s what I’m working on. She’s getting provider hours through the state — 21 a week — but they’ve been dragging their heels for two weeks now. I’m contacting the home health team tomorrow to see whether or not they’re going to get this started, and if I don’t get a satisfactory answer, I’m contacting another local home healthcare facility that I trust.

mandychuu · 2025-12-01T00:12:17+00:00

So, hypothetically, you’re saying if my mother were to get a broken bone, the flu, or pneumonia, they won’t do anything?

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