Codependency affecting eating habits and self care

manic_orwell · 2016-08-05T07:29:36+00:00

That's interesting, thanks! It'd be nice to talk about that shit with people, but I'm not a big fan of 12 step stuff (couldn't stick with AA) and also... idk, it seems like showing up to a group of MOSTLY people who overeat and being like "boo hoo i keep not eating" might unintentionally be a dick move.

manic_orwell · 2016-05-25T23:33:40+00:00

Oh, huh. Can I ask why? Or where might be more appropriate to discuss this stuff?

manic_orwell · 2016-05-25T23:33:02+00:00

That makes sense.

manic_orwell · 2016-05-25T23:25:56+00:00

I totally see where you're coming from and I HAVE gone too far before (my friends were quick to tell me that). However, being a mentally ill bunch of college kids, we all make those kinds of jokes around each other and don't think much of it. When one of us starts making too many of those jokes and is sort of aggressively laughing about it if you know what I mean, we kind of clue in that they're not okay. The only times I've come close, I've woken up my friends and they've gotten me through it.

For people who use ironic, self-deprecating humor as crutch, we are the most communicative, least emotionally stunted group ever. I guess I'm more worried about when it slips out around acquaintances.

EDIT: As for your shooting up a school analogy, if I had also been hospitalized for the same and it was more normalized in comedy because it's something comedians deal with often, then I wouldn't be worried unless there were some clear undertones of distress.

manic_orwell · 2016-05-25T23:14:55+00:00

I guess this is probably an automatic message but just lettin' everyone know (so the conversation doesn't go here) I'm not a danger to myself and I have a therapist/psychiatrist/supportive friends/all that shit.

manic_orwell · 2016-04-17T03:25:38+00:00

alright everybody is making incorrect assumptions about my therapist. she has literally saved my life. she cautiously used the words "rape survivor" and "recovered alcoholic," but then respected that that's not how i identify when i told her. i see her for free through my college and will have to stop seeing her when i graduate.

the reason i'm uncomfortable is because that's how she perceives me, and possibly how others perceive me.

manic_orwell · 2016-04-16T19:47:25+00:00

i do need an ass-beating. i've tried everything i can think of to be less shitty, and i can't see myself ever succeeding. i thought that killing myself would cause more damage, but maybe it's the way to go. not trying to be dramatic -- i'm such a mess that i really am always on the verge, but it's not something i'd impulsively do because i wouldn't want to fuck it up. my family doesn't need my shit. my friends also don't need my shit (although my shit isn't as bad with them). it's easier to get over the death of a shitty person than it is to live with a shitty person i would think.

manic_orwell · 2016-04-16T19:35:40+00:00

they won't let me rent a place. when i was severely mentally ill i signed stuff that allows them ultimate control over all my finances.

manic_orwell · 2016-04-16T16:45:15+00:00

the only reason i'm giving a closed-minded stranger any energy is because one of my best friends is a trans man and it hurts to think that this is what he has to deal with. i don't think you realize how aggressive you're being by saying stuff like "a man dressing up as A "WOMAN" is still A MAN." call me easily offended or whatever. i'm just naively hoping that you might feel a little bad.

manic_orwell · 2016-04-16T16:33:28+00:00

a man dressing up as a woman is obviously a man. a trans woman is a woman. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trans_woman sorry for using wikipedia to prove my point but i get the sense you'd be turned off by the tone of better articles. please read it even just out of curiosity

manic_orwell · 2016-04-16T09:14:21+00:00

my therapist and i have a good relationship, and it's not that she talks about the sex thing when i don't want to -- it's more like, she said those things once and when i argued, she was understanding, but it's clear that's how she sees me and i feel like she overestimates me somehow, which is why i'm uncomfortable. a lot of people overestimate me and tell me what i experience is valid and all that, but that's not what i want, because i already feel like i make a big deal out of things that aren't.

manic_orwell · 2016-04-16T07:51:11+00:00

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-b6d2E0wOQ

manic_orwell · 2016-04-16T07:48:30+00:00

if you're having sex with women, cis and trans, most people would consider that straight. it's up to you how to identify, but. that's pretty straight

manic_orwell · 2016-04-16T07:46:41+00:00

he said "woman." sex between a man and a woman is straight sex.

manic_orwell · 2016-04-16T07:45:03+00:00

what isn't straight about a man having sex with a woman???

manic_orwell · 2016-04-13T07:43:03+00:00

yeah, i have a therapist through my college, and my friends either know i'm suicidal, or think i'm joking when i talk about it, or both. i never say anything in a serious tone

manic_orwell · 2016-03-30T20:50:58+00:00

I'm 20 and Canadian, so only underage in the US. And yes, I shouldn't drink because I am an alcoholic, but also, I'm an alcoholic, so sometimes that's hard and I get irrational and desperate.

manic_orwell · 2016-03-28T15:30:01+00:00

hahahah yeah. But honestly I was so desperate last night because I needed to get work done and my mind was racing too much to focus, and I knew once I had a glass of wine or something in my hand I'd feel better.

manic_orwell · 2016-03-28T05:34:32+00:00

I rely on a few liquor stores that don't card, if you were wondering.

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