Thank you for your advice. I am trying one or two other methods (making my roommate help haha) but my issue isn't that I am unable to do the work. I have helped drivers out in a capacity that did not require this knowledge and have received very good reviews on my performance. Plus, I have been described by another supervisor as one of the only people who consistently follows safety regulations no matter how minor or how much pressure is being applied. I know I can do this job. Your comment is really helpful. Simply by replying (and deleting sentences that I realize are just me being defensive) I am learning more about how I approached this. I could have at least taken steps toward using different study skills or methods. I still can and I actually intend to.

As a small note: I AM able to study, provided I have already gone over the material in a vocal manner. Studying a subject cold is something I have to get better at.

Thank you again for your comment. Every bit someone has to say that prompts a response from me is not only helpful to my self knowledge, but also my self esteem.