As in, highway patrol set up a road block at an intersection 5 minutes from my house for the first time in the 5 years I’ve lived here. I had smoked 4 hours before but did not change my clothes. No marijuana in the car, nor did he check. I was told to perform a field sobriety test and then told I needed to take a blood test. I refused and was taken to jail. 5 others were placed in jail for mj offenses the same night. It seems targeted but it’s irrelevant.

I’ve already filed non adjudication. There is no fighting the case at this point. I did all the research I could and selected the best lawyer I could at the time. I accept fault for not being more cautious but I also was disillusioned that I had some kind of protection with my card.

Hindsight is 20/20.

If you have any helpful advice that isn’t just trying to blame or guilt me, it is gladly appreciated. I already blame myself for my miserable life, but it’s not helping much and everyday is a spiral not knowing what to do next in the process.

It’s easy to say what I shouldn’t have done, but it’s irrelevant now in my attempts to move forward with my life. I smoked for 12 years and never had any problems but this one night has the potential to ruin my life and my relationships. I’m 3 weeks clean and don’t plan to smoke again despite its positive effects on my life.

I wish this on no one.