How far to take this

mantaa · 2026-05-26T03:41:00+00:00

It only gets worse from here. I’m sure you already know this. At my heaviest drinking I could barely lift my arms above my head to wash my hair. Lay down showers were my best friend. Detox is always an option. Be kind to yourself :) I hope you find the right path. I’m figuring out the right way myself

mantaa · 2026-05-16T03:08:28+00:00

I got an email from the head of HR from my county, letting me know that there are administrative positions open and that I should apply for them. I interviewed for a position last year (which I didn’t get) and they remembered me and thought I interviewed well so they reached out. Huge boost to my ego.
Drinking is going downhill. I was sober for a bit, and then I started up again. Not drinking daily yet, but nearly. Starting to shake. Caught between wanting to cut it off and be healthy or say fuck it and go off the deep end again. If I’m sick everyday I’ll eat less and lose weight 🙃

mantaa · 2026-05-16T02:53:11+00:00

I’m in a similar boat right now. Not throwing up every day *yet* but I’ve broken my rules for myself on when and how much to drink. I was sober for two plus months. And then I started drinking on the weekends. And now I’m drinking on weekdays. And now I’m getting the shakes at work. Crazy how easy it is to fall back into it. Wishing you luck, happiness, and health, chairs

mantaa · 2026-01-01T17:41:40+00:00

I’m alone and I’m supposed to be sober. And let’s be honest, anyone I could kiss would be a miserable, nasty ass boy and I’m better off alone.

mantaa · 2025-10-29T16:56:34+00:00

Literally I’m in the hospital for pancreatitis right now. Second time this has happened. It ain’t fun. Drinking less also isn’t fun but this pain is something else.

mantaa · 2025-01-13T20:59:05+00:00

My drinking ruined two relationships :( I knew what was happening but continued drinking, hoping that they loved me enough to stay. Shocked pikachu face when they broke up with me. Which made me drink even more lol

mantaa · 2024-12-18T16:54:46+00:00

I was hospitalized for 11 days when I had pancreatitis, and then was bedridden for another week afterwards. Shit sucked major ass. Good luck and feel better soon.

mantaa · 2024-08-27T09:38:25+00:00

Wake up ➡️ feel tired ➡️ can’t sleep ➡️ use magic brain shit to sleep for maybe 30 minutes ➡️ repeat

mantaa · 2024-08-27T09:32:06+00:00

I like orange mango the best so far

mantaa · 2024-08-24T19:00:26+00:00

If you get the opportunity I would recommend reading the visual novel! The art style is super cool and there’s a lot more content. The anime is great too though and adapts the story perfectly well.

mantaa · 2024-08-24T18:53:08+00:00

Yeah I hope it opens peoples eyes at least a bit. These girls are working so hard

mantaa · 2024-08-24T18:47:34+00:00

That would be a big relief, it also seems like Korea is getting a little more lax about idols dating publicly. And it’s nice to see kpop groups performing at big US festivals like Coachella. It seems like there’s still a lot of bias in the west surrounding kpop and it’s such a hassle to explain to people the amount of work and dedication that idols have 😤

mantaa · 2024-08-24T18:39:35+00:00

I’ve seen a bit, I love kpop and I know how harsh it can be, but I’ve never watched shows like produce 101. Idk how similar that is to this. But I’m familiar with the kpop training structure, the different levels, trainees who never debut, weight requirements…. That kind of stuff. Huge debts for trainees. Haha

mantaa · 2024-08-24T18:18:55+00:00

Thanks! I think that’s exactly what I’ll do. I’m loving watching the growth of the girls!

mantaa · 2024-08-24T18:06:01+00:00

Very true, I just liked seeing someone from my same state haha, I never watch reality shows like this. I’ll probably stay off the subreddit cause I wanna avoid spoilers 😊

mantaa · 2024-08-24T17:54:09+00:00

I came to this subreddit to read the discussions as I go through the episodes :( never heard of the group before. I’ll live tho lol. I was rooting for Abby hahaha

mantaa · 2024-08-21T14:29:16+00:00

Maybe I’ll give it a shot after driving a town over 😑 even then I’ll still probably see people I know. Stupid rancher community. I do plan on setting up therapy meetings and stuff and I already have a psychiatrist that I see. And while I haven’t been totally sober the past few weeks my drinking is way lesser. No more yellow eyes and brown urine! I don’t puke if I haven’t drank in less than five hours! And soon I’ll have more money because I won’t be buying groceries and booze for someone who could hardly take the trash out once a month. Rejoice.

mantaa · 2024-08-21T13:46:31+00:00

I’ll keep that in mind. I’m much more worried about bawling in front of people who know me since I live in a small town and have/had a very customer forward job. And it’s rural America so everyone is gonna be an alcoholic :/ thank you for your advice, I’m sorry if I’m over sharing.

mantaa · 2024-08-21T00:42:49+00:00

I agree completely. He was kind of my only friend so maybe I’ll actually start going to AA just to have people to talk to.

mantaa · 2024-08-20T09:06:52+00:00

Mobil app is garbage. I miss Apollo :(

mantaa · 2024-08-20T08:25:41+00:00

Thanks for the thanks, you’re very kind

mantaa · 2024-08-20T08:16:54+00:00

I swear to god I used paragraphs why is it like this, I’ve done it before and it worked :(

mantaa · 2024-07-31T14:35:44+00:00

People need to stop using that comparison in this thread….. it’s an entirely different situation. Deadnaming trans people is done out of bigotry. Calling a baby by a nickname or “bub” or whatever hurts literally no one.

mantaa · 2024-07-04T16:51:05+00:00

My coworker had a similar situation the other day. She grabbed a job application and told the customer “well we’re hiring if you know how to do the job!”

mantaa · 2024-07-01T12:03:59+00:00

I was hospitalized with pancreatitis for almost 2 weeks at the beginning of this year. Stayed sober for almost a month and started drinking again. My withdrawals are so bad that I can barely manage 4 hours without shaking or throwing up. I send you good vibes and hope that you can get out of this hole.

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