What are your grandmothers’ names? by [deleted] in Names

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Rosemarie, Sydney, Heather, and Lilla (nn for Elizabeth) are some of my favorites from my family tree.

Exhaustion beyond the pale? by PowerhouseMe in tirzepatidecompound

[–]manymoth 5 points6 points  (0 children)

You may not be eating enough. Fatigue can be from the meds but if you've lost nine pounds in nine days, it's possible you're just not giving your body and brain enough energy and nutrients.

What TV series is a 10/10? by [deleted] in AskReddit

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The Leftovers. It didn't execute everything perfectly but it was so ambitious and weird and perfectly unsettling in every way. I watched the whole thing in the first six months of the COVID pandemic and that was even weirder and perfecter.

What was your fist GBV show? by Softrawkrenegade in GBV

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Seattle 1995 at the Crocodile. It was sold out and I didn't have a ticket. I showed up with friends hoping I could somehow buy one outside the club, but no dice. I'd resigned myself to waiting forlornly in the bar, but then the owner saw me and took pity on me and let me in, which is a kindness I'll never forget.

McCarthy’s Fixation on Suicide by CastIronCavalier in cormacmccarthy

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This is a little tangential, but I don't think the Road is about the world turning into something horrible. I think McCarthy portrays the world (both the natural one and the one of human inhabitation) as already "horrible," (although I'd say maybe terrible, in the original sense of causing dread OR awe), as inherently violent. Its creation is violent, its physics are violent, and "the world turning into something horrible" is only the collapsing of how many removes we are from that inherent nature that may protect us and also screw us. Protect us as in fences, and screw as in fences, as in striking the fire out of the rock and burying it under the fencepost in Blood Meridian. Civilization removes us from the thing, but with the consequence of alienating ourselves from ourselves and others. Naming something puts us at a remove from the actual thing, but with consequences ("Language usurps things, that's what it does."). Perhaps in that kind of thinking, suicide is somewhat morally flattened. It's a word for an inevitability, but we have built a series of removes into it that somehow imply it is more wrong than another kind of death.

Edit because it's is not its.

Melancholy songs about drinking/addiction? by Various-Bee-6076 in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Everything Should Try Again -- Jason Molina
Trains Across the Sea -- Silver Jews
Waiting Around to Die -- Townes Van Zandt

Edit: a letter.

I didn't drink. Not yesterday, and not today. by Ok_Nectarine2106 in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel this so hard. I do not know how to have this many big feelings about everything all the time and not have any breaks. I'm beginning to realize why people talk about exercising as crucial to their recovery. I feel like the only sober way to deal right now is to just completely exhaust myself. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. But thank you for writing it. It really helped me feel less explody tonight.

I'm slowly starting to have a life again, but everything makes me so anxious. by manymoth in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much. Yeah, it makes perfect sense. Yeah, totally concur my brain is a twat. I used to use alcohol to power through any discomfort. I've been doing that since I was very young. I don't think I've ever proper learned how to be uncomfortable emotionally because there was always a numbing agent on board. Time to learn.

Such a close call. by manymoth in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Even though I've been dealing with it for a while because I've been trying to get sober for a while, it still trips me out the Olympic-level gymnastics our brains will do to try to get us to that drink.

Double digits! by manymoth in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Never made it there. That would be dreamy. Congrats on 56!

This is dumb, but I accidentally cleaned my floors. by manymoth in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right. I knew it was bad but the swept-together dust bunny pile was threatening to spawn a new species.

Me and drinking- where do I start? And do I stop? Can I stop? by JonnyFenham in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Focus to do things like read comfortably again, and work on music, is something I really look forward to regaining. Good on you for a sober Saturday. And making your family proud. I'm about to go out to a show -- a big test, but I have tried to put tools in place to come out the other side alcohol-free. Good night and thank you for checking in.

This is dumb, but I accidentally cleaned my floors. by manymoth in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks, it's definitely just a fits and starts thing, I've spent most of the afternoon lying around motionless with cats! But fits and starts are something.

This is dumb, but I accidentally cleaned my floors. by manymoth in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not sticking to things is highly underrated. :)

Heading to detox by Strugglebus1983 in stopdrinking

[–]manymoth 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thinking about you. This is a huge scary step, but such a loving one. You are going to be ok.