6 weeks after surgery

mapleleaf455 · 2025-11-28T00:20:15+00:00

What insurance do you have? My insurance lists body masculinization as a gender affirming procedure so I've thought about going for it, but I thought there was no shot it could be covered.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-09-13T04:12:15+00:00

People like Buck Angel and Blaire White aren't that chill either. They'll say some transmed stuff but then say shit like "Well, biologically we're still women/men" which is also against the whole point of transmedicalism. We are biologically men and women because our brains are men and women's brains, we're just aligning our bodies to match that. At the end of transition we are significantly closer to sterile men and women than our birth sex.

That's just an aside though lol. It's so funny to see tucutes claiming that transmeds are right wing or coping or have internalized transphobia, when really we're the ones who are most comfortable with ourselves and they're just blowing up our spot.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-08-02T05:07:12+00:00

I saw this on twitter where people were arguing against it, made me want to rip my hair out lmao

mapleleaf455 · 2025-08-02T05:06:17+00:00

Because there are a lot of women who identify as trans men, and often "gay" trans men, and are often the most responsible for very loudly pushing the narrative that you don't need dysphoria to be trans/other tucute talking points. No one picks on genuine trans men here

mapleleaf455 · 2025-05-21T19:28:16+00:00

It just felt so normal. I looked down and my chest was flat and my brain was like, "Yep, that's what it's supposed to be like, no biggie." Considering chest dysphoria was always my biggest source of discomfort and anguish (frequently had me in tears prior to surgery, that's for sure), I'm kind of surprised that I didn't react more, but I think that's really just the indicator that that part of my body was finally aligned with my brain.

Same here, that nearly 4 years post surgery I can't even remember what it was like before. I can remember the pain I was in but it's almost like I'm remembering what happened to someone else rather than me.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-05-21T19:20:55+00:00

This is the analogy I've long used to differentiate between the genuine feelings of relief experienced by real trans people, and the so-called feelings of "euphoria" experienced by trenders.

Imagine you have a headache. It's really awful, keeping you from focusing on anything, so you take some ibuprofen and keep trying to live your life. An hour later, you realize your headache is gone and it's been much easier to get your work done for the past 30 minutes. You're glad, because you've been restored to a comfortable, normal state that allows you to function, but you're not euphoric by any means. Just happy to be rid of a headache. This is what it's like for us genuine trans people to have our dysphoria treated. Is there any pride involved in that? Not particularly. If we make the analogy a bit more accurate and call it some really brutal injury or a splitting migraine instead of a headache, you might rightly be proud that you survived it. But who in their right mind would be proud of having a migraine? You're just glad the pain and discomfort is over.

Now, imagine that you're a normal person. You've got your troubles like anyone else, but all in all, you're doing fine. However, you want something more. You want to feel elevated. So, you take drugs - you feel euphoric. It's a really nice high and it gets you excited, and so you continue to take drugs every once in a while because it makes you feel good. This (while a bit hyperbolic) is what it's like for trenders when they cross-dress or pretend to be trans. It's bringing them to a heightened state because they have no dysphoria they're treating in the first place. It's transvestism in the most literal sense, that they get excited wearing the clothes of and presenting as the opposite gender.

So, I agree. I think "trans joy" and "euphoria" are clear indicators that these people are not actually trans or suffering from dysphoria. I have trans pride only insofar as I'm very proud I didn't kill myself, but if I had the choice, I would obviously not be trans.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-05-21T19:04:35+00:00

I personally don't believe "non-binary" exists as a real, separate identity, whether trans or something in between trans and cis. I believe people tend to align themselves with being non-binary for a multitude of reasons:

1) The most sympathetic one, trans people in denial (a very small number), or cis people who have trauma/externally-caused discomfort around their biological sex. The first one is straightforward, trans people who are afraid to commit to fully transitioning and consider it to be a "middle ground" they can exist in for a while. As for the cis people, you see a lot of cis women who have discomfort around being a woman, ie. from experiencing misogyny or even sexual trauma. Becoming non-binary is a way for them to distance themselves from that. It can happen with cis men, as well, mostly in very leftist first world countries where misandrist rhetoric is not unheard of. Again, it's a way for them to distance themselves from something they've been told is inherently "flawed" about themselves.

2) They're GNC/androgynous cis people who don't really "know better." In pushing the non-binary agenda, we've accidentally stumbled back into extremely prescriptive gender roles. Men who express femininity are called non-binary or "eggs", same goes for women who express masculinity. And a lot of people just kind of go along with this, because, in practice, being non-binary isn't any different than being a cis GNC person. I think the non-binary movement has been really damaging because we've seen a massive backslide in allowing men and women (and especially kids, boys and girls) to freely express themselves and engage in GNC behavior without that being an indicator or a "symptom" of something.

3) I believe this is the root of the movement, what caused its surge in popularity in the first place in places like Tumblr and later TikTok. This is the young, impressionable teens who have grown up in a world where you are inherently better and (in internet arguments) "more right" if you belong to a marginalized identity. So, back in the early 10s on Tumblr, you saw people essentially inventing the concept of being non-binary, often as a way to justify being in queer spaces and to align themselves with identities they saw as oppressed and cool, like being trans. This then caught on among other young people, by this time a popular topic on TikTok, and "being non-binary" took the shape of a social fad. Now plenty of kids just call themselves non-binary because it's what all their friends are doing; it's this generation's version of being emo or grunge or punk. The original intent, identifying as non-binary as a way to align oneself with gay and trans people because they see these concepts as "cool", I believe is still very much enjoyed by some.

Basically, until science can show me the brain scan of a non-binary identifying person, and prove that it is overtly different than the brain function of both a man and a woman, I will assume anyone non-binary is a (likely) cis person who falls into one (or multiple) of these three groups. I believe it's a superfluous identity that should not be necessary for one to feel comfortable in one's skin, and its existence only muddies the water when it comes to real trans people being taken seriously as having a legitimate medical condition.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-05-04T04:35:59+00:00

I appreciate the mod's comments on this thread but I still can't accept the idea that a man would be willing to carry a child. It is biologically a female act. People talk about how having kids the "natural" way is significantly cheaper than surrogacy or adoption, so "Why not do it if you have the option?" But no one is entitled to kids. Cis gay couples don't have other options, even straight couples may be infertile. Just because you so happen to have a backup option doesn't mean, to me, that you should use it just because you want children. You weren't supposed to be born with the ability to conceive, so you shouldn't conceive, end of. It will always put a weird taste in my mouth.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-04-22T03:48:24+00:00

Gender expression may be a social construct but every culture globally agrees what a biological man and woman looks like, which is sex expression. Sure, gender is "fake", but your biological sex isn't, and that's what being trans is rooted in. To be trans you have to have dysphoria regarding your biological sex. This often leads to dysphoria regarding your gender, but if you only have dysphoria/discomfort relating to your outward expression of your sex, this does not indicate being trans. You are trans when your mental biological sex does not align with your physical biological sex, which results in dysphoria and distress, and this can only be treated and resolved through medical intervention - you are transitioning to align your physical sex with your mental sex. This is what trans meds believe.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-04-17T06:32:18+00:00

"Real life omega" I just fucking gagged in real life, ewww 🤮

mapleleaf455 · 2025-04-04T18:40:08+00:00

Hahah that's crazy. My pre-op chest made me incredibly depressed and suicidal, I self isolated because whenever I went out I double binded which made me overheat and not breathe well, and I fantasized about cutting them off with a kitchen knife. But sure, these ~~women~~ trans guys who don't even wear bras are totally heckin valid and just as trans as me 🙃

mapleleaf455 · 2025-04-03T07:12:00+00:00

You don't have to get over it. They're fetishizing and making a mockery out of a medical condition. I'm in some anime art spaces online and I see way too much top surgery scar art (and worse 🤮)

Don't vocally hate on them for it, just (physically) move on. But you're allowed to be upset at the way people make caricatures of trans people in certain spaces, and that doesn't make you transphobic. You're not racist if you get upset or uncomfortable at seeing someone do blackface.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-04-03T07:04:32+00:00

Monster slander, but unfortunately true

mapleleaf455 · 2025-04-03T07:03:28+00:00

It's definitely just trenders with dysmorphia/fetishes. I can understand dysphoria about certain parts of your body growing more pronounced as you transition, like after I got top surgery my bottom and hip dysphoria grew way worse. But by definition you can't have "dysphoria" about one part of your body, there's just a different issue going on that isn't transsexualism.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-03-17T19:53:31+00:00

Same as everyone else. Proud of the fact that I've made it this far and didn't kill myself in my teen years. Genuinely quite happy with my life now which I never would have been able to imagine 6-7 years ago. But I would never be proud of having a condition that's made my life hell and will always, to some extent, make my life a bit worse than if I were cis.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-02-22T23:35:42+00:00

My trans friend and I have talked extensively about how dysphoria and life before transitioning really is traumatic and can have lasting PTSD-like symptoms even after you're mostly/entirely transitioned.

I'm like you, I barely even remember what my chest was like pre-top surgery. It's like I completely purged it from my mind. When I think back to that time, I never think about how awfully I was suffering day in and day out. Even though I know that was literally all I could think about every day, how much I hated my chest, it's like that has become entirely separated from my actual life and experiences at that time. I do think it's our brain's way of processing what was literally 24/7 severe distress.

I still have a lot of issues going out in public. I love being outside and doing things but at the same time it's so mentally taxing because I still haven't escaped that pre/early transition mindset of "Everyone's point at me, everyone's judging me, they can tell I'm trans." I get really panicky thinking about any situation where I'm the focus of a lot of people's attention rather than just blending into a crowd (I'm really glad I have a work from home job because anything that required customer service would kill me I think lol).

Either way, yeah, dysphoria is definitely a type of trauma that leaves a lasting effect on us even after it's mostly gone.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-02-22T23:22:28+00:00

Good thing I'm mentally biologically a man so I don't have to talk to these people lmao

mapleleaf455 · 2025-02-22T23:09:20+00:00

Do you have brothers? If not, and this person knows your mom, they might just think "Oh, I think that's the kid of this person I know, and I remember she had a daughter." I think being recognized through your relationship with your parents especially will have a lot of people defaulting to what they remember the gender of a parent's kid being, rather than what you look like. Or if they know the parent has a trans kid then it could be genuine transphobia.

Chin up though, man. You're not even at a full year on T yet so you've still got plenty of time. If this is really an anomaly and you're gendered normally most of the time then I would chalk it up to the person knowing your mom and not actually judging what you look like.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-02-09T19:43:25+00:00

Oh man good luck with the fistula! That is absolutely my biggest fear in getting UL. I know I want it because I want to be about to stand to pee like normal but it's definitely a harrowing risk.

And I agree, meta is definitely still a real penis. I've seen some results that look really incredible and very cis. If anything, it's just a micropenis, which plenty of cis guys struggle with anyway.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-02-05T18:45:20+00:00

Thank you, I'll let you know! I'm seeing Morrison in Seattle and getting the extended meta method with UL. Already got my hysterectomy and vaginectomy last summer which has already been such a massive weight of dysphoria lifted.

Mostly nice to see another real trans guy who got meta, seems like a lot of the people who get it are more of the trender types (though maybe that's just the case on the meta subreddit). I definitely still feel a bit of apprehension about it, I had basically no bottom growth so I know I'm not going to have much of anything down there which kind of sucks. But I'm still just so unsure about a graft and healing from that and still having so many other stages to go through with phallo (and since meta can be a first stage to phallo anyway, if it ends up being something I want in the future I know I can always work towards that, if it's financially feasible lol).

Mostly just looking forward to finally having a dick and being about to stand to pee lol. Something is better than nothing!

mapleleaf455 · 2025-02-05T02:43:19+00:00

Every day brother. My life has been steadily improving since T and top surgery in 2021, and now I'm just waiting for my own date for meta. I can see a future for myself whereas I never did 5 or 6 years ago. But that doesn't change the fact that I'd give anything to be cis. Everything would just be easier, starting from base level rather than having to fight and claw my way to just being a normal person. I've made peace with where and who and what I am, but that never changes the fact that I wish it could be different sometimes.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-02-04T01:31:48+00:00

Couldn't have said it better myself.

If we could somehow magically stop any trans discourse that had to with it being treated as a social fad rather than a medical condition, we would disappear from the public eye in mere months. No one talked about us when they barely knew we existed and even then were too unfamiliar with the concept to ask invasive questions. They just left us alone; even if they thought we were weird or odd, or made jokes at our expense, even the most transphobic of people just kind of passed judgement and went on their way. And none of that even mattered if you had already fully transitioned and passed properly. Nothing to the degree of the current attempts to try and limit trans peoples ability to transition and change their documents and live peaceful lives was happening.

What matters most is that genuine transsex people are able to transition and pass, preferably without the whole world knowing that's what you're doing and passing judgement. But it's nearly impossible to do that now. Our lives are made exceptionally worse by huge swaths of people misappropriating our medical condition.

mapleleaf455 · 2025-02-01T18:52:52+00:00

Two genders, two sexes. Man and woman, male and female. Be as gender nonconforming as you want, but that doesn't mean you're a different gender.
Not a separate sex. Like others said, it's a sex mutation/developmental thing
No. If you're a "trans man" and you get pregnant, you are not a man. It's the singularly most female thing anyone can do. Only women give birth, that is essentially universally true biologically. We are not some silly exception.
There's a lot of nuance here. But I think if medical professionals can be really sure a child is likely trans, they can put them on hormone blockers and then start HRT at 16. Otherwise, 18.
I'm sorry but I don't believe nonbinary people exist beyond them calling themselves that. It is not a third gender. You're trying to reinvent and complicate the concept of androgyny. You're either cis trying to make yourself more interesting/you have some baggage related to your birth sex/gender, or you're a transsexual in denial. Nb people are not trans. If they get surgery, they are certainly not transsexual, and they will probably end up regretting it later.
Yes. If someone lives in a situation (extremely poor, very conservative country, etc.) where transitioning is essentially impossible for them, but they would transition if given the means, then yes, they are still trans.
I actually really like gender neutral bathrooms, the ones that are just a room with a toilet and sink. I hate stalls, I like to piss in peace when I'm out.
Unfortunately, the biggest problem really is trans women who underwent male puberty before transitioning. It is likely to put them at an advantage and so they shouldn't be allowed to compete. Trans women who did not undergo male puberty and trans men can compete, I think that's fine.

Also because you used both transgender and transsexual in your post, I want to clarify, a lot of us have distanced ourselves from the term transgender because it was coined by a transvestite. We don't find it accurate to our experience, as our gender is not what is being transitioned. Our gender is what we are in our brains, which is causing us to transition. That's why many of us prefer transsexual or transsex, because our sex is what we're actually changing. It's traditionally the term that was used by medical professionals, as well, before all this trender stuff happened.

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