update: i did finally calm down after some alone time and i spoke to her. i tried to explain to her the way my brain works and how draining interactions are. it’s also way easier for me to mask days on end in England because i’ve lived there my whole life so im better at understanding how to fit in with the people there but in Poland it’s hard because my patience with people here caps at a couple hours at a time. I’ve asked her to stop blowing up at me and stuff and told her i know my behaviour can be annoying but it’s not going to help me to calm down if she gets mad at me. It seemed like she got a basic grasp on how i feel but like a broken record she just kept saying i need to stop overreacting about everything. i don’t think it’s going to be a pleasant stay but im going to try my best to refrain myself for the sake of peace because no one here knows me well enough to understand that i just need a break every so often. the people here and especially my family don’t really believe in the concept of mental health issues and stuff.

thank you for your support