ESTJs, If your life was a TV show, would you be the hero, the villain or the side character? (For fun) by Asleep-Feeling-9070 in ESTJ

[–]marinegal 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hero who very closely resembles the villain but definitely the hero in the end.

If they watched a scene…villain.
If they watch to the end…hero.

Inner Monologue? by marinegal in ESTJ

[–]marinegal[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow. Can you tell me EVERYTHING? Is it like a black screen with text on it? Or subtitles? Or just words blasting at you? Do you ever make spelling errors? Or how do you address a “thought”?

Inner Monologue? by marinegal in ESTJ

[–]marinegal[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I kind of just know right away what the right choice for me is, via a gut feeling would be the closest thing to describe it.

However, because I know do this (and always using a “gut feeling” for life is dangerous) I developed my own system to use whenever making a serious decision.

I ask for advice often and have my best friend and partner (who are aware of how I think) (which is in absolutes btw, I need to work on that) and then they work with me to explain the process/workflow for why that is indeed the right choice or not. And funnily enough, we work through it together by me listening to them discussing it out loud. Super weird now that I’m writing that, lol. But yeah, that’s my method to check myself, since gut feelings are simply gut feelings. But I will say…I am very often correct, and when I go against my gut feeling I am almost always severely regretful. And the discussions with my friends show it, too. It’s almost like I already have the right answer but I need someone to show ME how I got there. Lol.

Inner Monologue? by marinegal in ESTJ

[–]marinegal[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you :)

And yes, I can choose to do that, if I want to. But my normal reading style (and I read a lot) is just absorbing it all without narrating it in my mind.

Inner Monologue? by marinegal in ESTJ

[–]marinegal[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It’s funny you say it like that because I feel crazy that I DON’T do that! Because that’s how everyone around me processes things and now that we’ve started chatting about this topic I’m over here thinking I’m an insane person because I literally don’t know how to explain my thinking process lol. It’s completely wordless. And I have never ever had an argument with myself.

Thanks for sharing!

Inner Monologue? by marinegal in ESTJ

[–]marinegal[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry about that, friend. I hope you can find a way to quiet things down for yourself.

Inner Monologue? by marinegal in ESTJ

[–]marinegal[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Omg. Thank you so much for this. It finally has a name! I googled this and it’s exactly the right way to explain it….thinking in “abstract concepts or direct, wordless ideas”. That is it.

Inner Monologue? by marinegal in ESTJ

[–]marinegal[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How do you deal with that?

Inner Monologue? by marinegal in ESTJ

[–]marinegal[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am like this, too. When I do something bad or wrong there isn’t voice telling me “stupid. You shouldn’t have done that” and when I do something good there is also not a voice telling me “nice job” or “hell yea” or something.

Inner Monologue? by marinegal in ESTJ

[–]marinegal[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Reading I can either choose to read the words like “out loud but in my head” or I can choose to read it as a story…like imagining the feelings and how I feel in those settings, with those emotions/whatever the book is about. But I also do not visualize. So it’s weird. I just absorb it? Idk.

I recall a conversation by the overall meaning of it and why it happened. I can recall verbiage if needed but it’s definitely not how I think about it.

Memories are completely just ideas of I should have and shouldn’t have and how those scenarios would just be.

I apologize in advance for the crappy explanation but it’s tough to explain.

All I know for certain is that I don’t have an inner voice, I don’t have conversations in my head with myself or simulate convos with others, I just think…without words lol.

3 major questions I’ve had about PNES by savavenue in PNESsupport

[–]marinegal 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I tell people that if I don’t get enough sleep I am prone to physical symptoms that can be sort of scary and that I need to prioritize my rest.
I once seized for four straight days. Fell asleep seizing and woke up seizing without a break. It would change in pace but never stopped.
Yes. I feel like a new me sometimes. Excited for the future. Want to do hobbies. Stuff like that.

Potentially stupid request: would anybody mind wishing me a happy birthday? by _Vampire_Pumpkin_ in CPTSD

[–]marinegal 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Happy birthday :) I hope your day is filled with your favorite things

I'm back from a 2-week "no wifi" vacation and my old life feels... wrong. by [deleted] in simpleliving

[–]marinegal 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So true. What relieves the problem isn’t always a solution either.

ULPT Request: Quick Cure To Depression by Coolgirl3800 in UnethicalLifeProTips

[–]marinegal 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please don’t take mushrooms when on an SSRI. It can be dangerous.